I\u2019m so sorry. I\u2019m sorry I couldn\u2019t be the sister you needed me to be, and I\u2019m sorry if you ever thought that I didn\u2019t love you. If I could take back all of the hurtful heat of moment things I\u2019d said, I would.
\n I had a dream yesterday, and it wasn\u2019t a dream filled with magic or a happy ending. It was just a dream about you and I, sitting and bickering over candy. I don\u2019t know what hurt the most about it though. Was it waking up and realizing I\u2019d had a good dream with you, or waking up and realizing that it was a lie because you\u2019re gone? You\u2019re gone and you\u2019re never coming back.
\n I don\u2019t think I have it in me though to ask for you to come back, not to a world where you\u2019d be in pain. I\u2019d like to think life would be easier if I forgot you all together. Forgot the pain of losing you, the pain of having to say that I\u2019m an only child now, that I\u2019m not and older sister anymore. I don\u2019t understand what I did to deserve this pain.
\n Mom says she hears you sometimes, I don\u2019t know if she actually does or not though. The only voices I hear anymore are the ones telling me that it hurts and that I don\u2019t want to be here without you, that this pain isn\u2019t getting better, nor is it getting bearable.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019m so sorry. I\u2019m sorry I couldn\u2019t be the sister you needed me to be, and I\u2019m sorry if you ever thought that I didn\u2019t love you. If I could take back all of the hurtful heat of moment things I\u2019d said, I would. I had a dream yesterday, and it wasn\u2019t a dream filled […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1175","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-love-letters"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1175","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1175"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1175\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1175"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1175"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1175"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}