And it’s funny
\nbecause i thought i knew you
\nbut it turns out i never knew you
\nnever even had a glimpse.
\nand i get it
\nyou’re growing up,
\nand you’re changing
\nbut this isnt one of those times
\nwhere you stray so far
\nFrom where you’re supposed to be
\nand find yourself exactly where you’re meant to be,
\nno this is you straying into oblivion
\nand of course i’d go to hell and back to save you,
\nbut you’re not letting me.
\nI dont know why,
\nmaybe because you need to save yourself first,
\nbut all i know is I’m beating on these walls
\nand knocking on all the doors
\nwaiting for you to let me in
\nbecause you blocked me out
\nthe one person i was sure wouldn’t
\nand it’s funny
\nbecause i let you in
\ni was deceived by your pretense of innocence
\nbeing young
\ndoesnt make you innocent
\ni realized this now
\ni hoped i could save you from feeling everything
\ni’ve felt
\nthe loneliness
\nthe sadness
\nthe feeling of not belonging
\nthe feeling of being unloved
\nthe feeling of everyone seeming better than you
\nbut you didn’t let me.
\nI guess that’s my constant flaw.
\ni want to save the people
\nwho don’t want to be saved,
\nthe ones who enjoy being a walking travesty.
\ni dont know why i’m so addicted to this,
\nof getting my heart crushed,
\nbut i find myself always coming back to the broken ones.
\ni thought you were different,
\nbut you weren’t.
\nmy only intention was to save you,
\nbut you’re drowning yourself
\nand taking me with you
\nand I just don’t see how this is fair.
\nAnd the most unfair thing
\nis I will always care
\nwhile you’re getting drunk
\nand sneaking out with boys
\nand doing all the things
\ni never hoped you would,
\ni will be breaking.
\nbecause i can’t stand the sight
\nof a falling star.
\nBecause
\nyou were so bright
\nand i dont care if your friends do it
\nor if its fucking cool
\nor if it doesn’t even hurt you
\nbecause once you hold yourself to low standards
\nit impossible to get those standards back up
\nand im sorry
\nim sorry i cared so much
\nit’s just another flaw of mine
\ni got so attached
\nand i didn’t see you pushing me out
\nuntil the doors were already locked and
\ni know i should have seen it coming
\nbecause from the first time i met you
\ni knew i wasn’t going to let you change
\nbut i was so deceived
\nand i can’t help
\nbut to feel as if this is all my fault
\nand im sorry.
\nim sorry i couldn’t save you.
\ni guess the only reason ive resulted to saving other people
\nis because i cant even save myself
\nso i just keep this crappy self-esteem
\nand try to do things
\nthat make me want to live
\nand im doing the bare minimum to save myself
\nbecause i don’t see why i need to be saved
\nespecially because i failed you
\nand i keep failing everyone
\nand im sorry
\nim so sorry<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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