I miss you big brother, you were my protector, you were everything to me. I wanted to say thank you Adrian, because you were always there when I was feeling down. I miss you so so much, brother. I miss those days when you used to put music in the car when you were taking me to the high school. I miss the way “How you remind me” sound in your voice, i miss everything. I miss you being overprotective when some boy was trying something with me. I miss our late night talks.
\nMom is not ok, it’s been one year and she tries to hide it, but i know that she feels really bad. She’s in a depression, brother. Dad, tries to be the strong in the family, but you can see the pain in his eyes. I remember when you taught me what good music was, you put a lot of bands in my computer and you were explaining me every detail of every band. Kurt Cobain was my favorite, you knew that and you gave me a necklace of Nirvana the next day, now I never take it off. I knew that you sometimes did drugs, but you told me that you were ok, that it was only marijuana. It was sad to me seeing you smoking weed, because I knew that it wasn’t only that. Eventhough you told mom that you finished with the drugs, I knew that you were lying. I know that you used to hold a lot of pain inside, I knew it, and I feel bad because Iwas never strong enough to try to talk to you, because I was scared and I was as fucked up as you were. I remember the days you encourage me about saying that I was good at singing, and you used to tell it to all your friends and in those moments I felt really embarrased, but now I understand that you were proud of me, and I have to say that I’m also really proud of you. Maybe dad never showed to you that he was proud of you, he was very hard with you and I feel really bad about that.
\nI have to tell you that you were the best big brother in the world, I love you so so so so much. I wrote a song about you and you won’t be able to hear it. I won’t forget you, I promise.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I miss you big brother, you were my protector, you were everything to me. I wanted to say thank you Adrian, because you were always there when I was feeling down. I miss you so so much, brother. I miss those days when you used to put music in the car when you were taking […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-776","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-love-letters"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/776","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=776"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/776\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=776"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=776"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/loveletters.avadellaira.com\/love-letters\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=776"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}