This is my second letter for you. It’s been exactly a month since you died. I haven’t moved on from that ever since. I think your cousins are doing okay. One of them celebrated his birthday yesterday, I guess. I haven’t shown anyone our (my cousin and I) poem for you. I’ve been very thankful that even though you deserve a rest, you didn’t stop from being my guardian angel. Our guardian angel. It’s funny the irony of your name.<\/p>\n
Anyway, ate Bona’s wedding is next week, I’m hoping that you’ll be there. Because we took your suggestion on what gift we should give them. It was a pretty great idea. I haven’t told anyone about this, well, I told Yzza and Raya, but last month was pretty hard for me. I felt everyone are leaving me. My old friends, my friends from the church, and my family. I tried to think positive, but sometimes, I’ll wish that it should’ve been me who was dead. I’m sorry for thinking about this, but ever since I was little, I’ve been keeping a lot of things to myself. I tried to write, but I couldn’t. It’s not like before. I don’t know if I have depression, but I feel like I’m all alone. I’m scared. I never admitted it to anyone, but I am. I thought about cutting, but I never had the guts to do it. I know that I’ll regret it. And I’ve heard my cousin’s experiences about cutting, I don’t want to go through that. And I don’t want to be a burden to my family, they already hate me, why would I make something that’ll make them hate me more? <\/p>\n
Anyway, as always, I love you, Gela. To infinity amd beyond. Stay where you are, I might meet you someday when my time comes \ud83d\ude09 Continue on guiding all of us \u2764<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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