I miss you so much and I can’t believe it has been over six years since you have passed away. You left us to soon and its been super hard on everybody. I try to be happy cause I know that’s what you would have wanted but I break down so much on the inside. I will never be the same again. I was mad at you for the longest time because i didn’t understand why you would just leave me. We are family and you changed all of our lives forever. I didn’t think you loved us anymore because if you did you wouldn’t have left us especially me. I just wish I got to say a proper goodbye and you wouldn’t have had to leave so soon. I just read this book for my English project and I fell in love with it. It made me think of you so much. I wish you were here to see me grow up and do amazing things. I wish I could talk to you about so many things but I can’t. I dont really talk to dad that much, he calls every once in a while. It’s always so awkward because I never know what to talk about. Its the same questions over and over again. Hows school? How are your sports? Anything new going on? It’s like hes trying but it is just not working. I have Jr. prom at the end of the year and I am super excited for that. I wish you could be here to go dress shopping and share these moments together with me but you are not. I talk to Bri and Amanda as much as possible but it’s not always the easiest. JJ is doing good, its crazy that he just turned 7. I don’t see him at all really maybe twice a year if that. I dont know if anybody has tried talking to him about you but it’s sad that he didn’t get to know you. Mom this is so hard because I have so many other things going on but I can never focus on anything knowing that I will never see you again. I miss getting hugs from you and having you tuck me in at night. I hope I have made you proud and that you are watching over me. I love you forever and always<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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