"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Its been a while. Almost 3 years and it still feels like you just left. They said it was supposed to get easier to deal with, but its just gotten harder. When I first found out, I was in English, 4th period, room A104, and the whole world collapsed. Lizz texted me “wait Nicks dead?”. I was one of the last to find out. I felt so heartbroken, someone I was so close to left me and I didn’t know until the next morning. No wonder why you never responded to my texts. Sandra blames her mom, since she wouldn’t drive you home that night, and a part of me wants to blame her too. If she would have just driven you the ten minutes across town, you’d still be here. breathing and making everything feel okay again. Part of me blames you, why were you so stupid to be in the road? Why weren’t you paying attention. If you were over 5 feet on the sidewalk you never would have gotten hit. You would have still been here. I pass the spot almost everyday, and everyday I miss you a little more. I haven’t stopped though. I don’t know what I would do, what I would even say. He only got 6 months for killing you. 6 months. How is that okay? How do you justify taking someones life, someone who meant so much to so many people, with only 6 months. You still had you’re entire life ahead of you. You only turned 18 five days before, it not fair. Its not fair that I am now 19, and you are forever stuck at 18. I’ve been trying to do the growing up for the both of us. But its hard, you were always there when i needed someone to push me in the right direction. You were there when i needed someone to tell me what to do, and you were always there. It didn’t matter what time it was, you always answered. I miss you just showing up at my house whenever you wanted, because you knew id be there because I never did anything without you. You forced me out of my shell, and I will forever be grateful for that. There aren’t enough words in the dictionary to give you all the thanks you deserve. I’ve tried, but your phone is turned off now. So many things that I wish I could tell you in person. What I would do to have you back for just one more day. You’ll always have a place in my heart, no one will ever take that. It will always be there for you. Nothing can ever take it. I wish I could say more than just I miss you, but I don’t know what words to use. I wish you were still here. I miss you so much.