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Hey.. It’s your granddaughter, again. I needed someone to talk to, but everyone’s so busy in their own life, I don’t want my problems to be added in their own problems. So I’ll just rant here for awhile okay? I took my English oral examination today. I don’t know, I think I did badly. I was stuttering, nervous, I felt like crying when I was talking to the examiners. After the exam, I immediately burst out, I cried. I cried because I thought I fucked up. I thought that’s the end, I’m going to fail my whole national exam now and I have no future anymore. But then, I realised I was just over thinking. But I just couldn’t stop crying because I was so disappointed in myself. It’s so so difficult, my life is so difficult. I really want to give up, but I know I can’t. I can’t disappoint my parents, teachers and.. Myself. I have to persever a couple of months more and I’ll be done. I just want to make my family proud, that’s all. And it’s so hard. I am so terrified that I might lost my motivation because of this. I’m scared that I’m starting to think that I’m not good enough or smart enough. Regardless, I’ll try my best I’m everything I do. How’s life up there? Is it better than here? I hope you guys are doing fine. I love you guys.