"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

You may think why did I wrote a letter for myself, if I’m not yet dead.
I’m still alive, still kicking and having fun with my friends. The thing is that I know I’m still alive but I feel like I’m already dead, like I’m a walking dead. It was hard for me to keep everything all by myself and I guess I am nothing compared to Laurel. She was a good girl, but Laurel and I have this same issue and that is we both losing our selves .
I lose myself. And I keep losing it. I’m afraid that maybe one day, I could not even say a word for myself or for others. Maybe one day, I can’t hear their voices and I was just in the coffin, so yeah, before I die, just before it, I wanted to say how thankful I am, to have all of you, sometimes I am so fragile, but all of never gets tired of fixing me and taking good care of me. I never said thank you to all of you guys, I know I didn’t, and please always be brave and strong enough to win every long battle. Always remember that all wounds can heal by time and it would left a scar, a scar that you must live with it because no matter what you do ,no matter what you say it is part of you, and guys! Promise me also that you will find the other half of you. The other 100% of you,Mom,Dad,Siblings,Friends,Classmates,and everyone who pass by in my life,Thank you for taking away the half of me and giving the another half of me. And lastly to myself, be strong don’t lose the whole you. The whole being of you. The every tip and part of you. Love yourself and if One day, you’ll be watching your own self in the coffin smile at her, okay? And make her happy. And if the whole is against with your smile, don’t worry there is always a whole of you to love it. THERE IS A WHOLE OF YOU TO BE WITH YOU AGAINST ALL OF THE OBSTACLES IN THIS LIFE. So stop losing it. And enjoy your life till it last.

-Yours,Me