"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I guess I am kind of mad you left us.. That I didn’t get to say goodbye… That i didn’t show you how much I loved you when i had the chance. So maybe it was my fault you decided to leave or maybe you had been holding things in for a while… You birthday just passed I posted a picture of you and me and Jaden looked at some old picture and starting telling old stories. I really did love you. The fact that your gone tears me apart but im not going to tell anyone, I never do. It hurts to know that im keeping all of this to myself so I figure I’d tell you from now on once in while I will write to you. Jaden says she wishes that you were hear and that she would have liked to know what life would have been like without you. Do you remember when you took me on the bike for the first time. It was really fun and I pretended to be scared when actually it was really nice. I wish you could take me on the bike now. I feel bad talking to dad about you even though I never really did I mean you were his best friend and I know it makes him sad to think about you.. He used to help you calm down and you guys would go get drinks, play pool. I wish we could go back to then when I was better and you wer here. I dont know if the divorce was the only reason you left or if it was other things but i do know that I want everything to be better with you.