"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Hey, gigi it has been 5 years since you passed away! (So Crazy). We are all so grown up now I know you have been watching every step of the way. I’m almost 16 now I have my temps and will soon be attending a school where I can pursue my dreams of becoming an oncology nurse. I’m doing it FOR YOU. Ever since you have been gone I’ve just always wanted to be a nurse and become one that helps take care of cancer patients and does everything in their power to make sure they live out the life they deserve. I haven’t exactly been the same since you left us nothing has been the same honestly… The family has broken up so much mom and dad are no longer together and haven’t been since only a few months after you passed away. You know I talk to you almost every day or at least I try to. I’ve been finally getting the help I need after being through everything I’ve been through in the past few years and honestly being traumatized. I’m really trying so hard to make everyone proud of me and make sure I have a good future but sometimes it is so hard and so draining and the worst part of it all is that feeling of no matter how hard you try no one ever is proud of you and no one ever really agnologies the good things you do and all the things you do to better yourself and only ever agnlogies the wrong things you do in life. I try every day to pick myself up more and more as the days go on all because I know you are at least proud of me and there for and with me every step of the way through the journey of life. It still hurts at the thought of your never gonna be able to actually meet my kids or watch me get married, graduate high school, become a nurse, or any big things that are to come to me in my life that I just wish you could be there for. I hated seeing you suffer your last few months of life but i’m also so mad no one allowed me to see you before you passed and the day I was finally gonna be able to see you, God himself chose to bring you home. We all knew he was gonna be ready for you to come home one day, we just were hoping and praying it wasn’t so soon… but he had other plans. I’m happy you are no longer suffering but I miss you so much and I hope you’re enjoying your life up there in that beautiful place we like to call Heaven with our father, I love and miss you so much and until we meet again you will always be my GiGi and my Bestfriend.