"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

There are these times when I still can’t believe you’re not here by my side anymore. i haven’t even taken care of you for a very long time yet, but then you already left. You’ve been telling me a lot of times that you’re already tired of everything – you also feel tired for us who takes care of you very well. I know you know how it hurts me not to by all means help you out with all your pain. We both know that we can’t do anything about them. And then all you can think of is to just end all the pain to everything. But then, you and I know what it means, right

Now, everything has changed. Everybody has changed. Those people who thought would be the ones who will take care of me are stabbing me in the back. They didn’t even care in the first place. I just thought they were. But then I was wrong. Now that you’re really gone, I felt so alone, especially now that I’m away from my parents and you’re supposed to be the only parent that I should have right now. You’re my only hero from everyone else. You’re the one who always stand by my side because i know you know me very well. Everyone else can’t just understand me like you do.

As of now, I am happy to have some of my friends and my special someone by my side while I’m trying to survive in this city. But everything’s still different without you here. All I just want to say is that I miss you already. I miss you so much I wish I was still a young little girl who keeps on clinging on your arm wherever you go and whatever you do.