"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Hi, E. I know you’re not dead but I just can’t say this in front of your face. So here it goes.

E, I kind of hate you. You’re the reason why Z and i got to talk to each other. You said to him that I am a love expert even if I only had one boyfriend and one not-so-sad-and-painful break up.

I can’t say to you that I love Z because we’re both friends with A. So I decided to keep it but I couldn’t. I feel like I’m about to explode. It’s like my memory lane and heart are already full and both of it want to let out some of my memories, secrets, and feelings.

You don’t know this book and you don’t know about this site so I took the advantage and I wrote my feelings here. I wrote my whole story with Z below. You can read it if somehow you landed in this site or if somebody told you about this awesome book.

So, E. This feeling for Z is one of my dark and deepest secrets. And I hope that if you read this, you’ll understand me.

I love you, sweetheart.