"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I remember when I gave you that nickname/codename back when we were 14. You used to wear this blue sweatshirt that made your eyes pop so much so that’s why I called you blu. Damn it’s been a really long time. I still have trouble listening to the song Use Somebody because it reminds me of you. A lots changed since then. But no matter what my feelings for you never changed. Even through all the bad shit that you did I still loved you. I wish I would have told you that when you were here. I wish I told you that you were the first person I had ever been in love with and that no one will ever compare to you. It has been 2 years since I last talked to you and I was planning on messaging you the day after you died but that never happened. I also thought that maybe one day we’d find our way back to each other and we could’ve been something or at least we could have been in each others lives. But you had other plans and that’s okay no ones mad. We’re all just happy that you’re free now and don’t have to be in pain. Only a few select people know about how I felt about you. You were my little secret and probably always will be. Maybe one day when we meet again and I can finally tell you I love you and I’m sorry I never told you when you were here. I miss you I miss you so fucking much. But I doubt you even ever think about me. If you reading this know that a lot of people cared about you and miss you dearly even the ones you don’t think do. Rest Easy Blu see you soon please watch over all the ones who love you and keep them safe. They need you. I love you.