"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

You were the one person in my life that I could tell anything too. You were the best listener, and you would never judge me. My life has changed a lot ever since you passed away from lung cancer that developed into brain cancer, about one year ago. I wish that I could be talking to you right now and just sitting with you. Now I feel like I am alone, with no one to talk too. I truly believe that you are keeping me strong, because I have not even cried once since you died. I don’t even know how that is possible because I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone in my whole life. I think about you all the time, and I watch videos and look at pictures of us together, but nothing. It’s like I have no feeling because I don’t even start to get sad, or happy remembering the times we had. I’m just like a soulless rock out in the wild. I wish that is not how I was but it just is. My grandpa makes me feel bad about it, he tells me that it’s impossible not to get sad unless I didn’t care about you but I do care about you drably. I think the only reason I am able to be strong is because you are here in my heart helping me to be strong so that I can live my life, and becoming a doctor, like I always told you I wanted to be. I would tell you that I will one day work at the hospital were you went and that I would help all sorts of people to fight whatever desis they have. I also have never dreamed about you, you haven’t been in any of my dreams. Everyone I. My family has had at least one dream with you in it exempt me. I do not understand why, but I love you. <3