"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

It’s weird how the smallest things can make me miss you. I can hear someone hum and miss how you’d sing to me. I can hear someone laugh and miss the laughter that lit up your brown eyes. I can see a post-it note and miss the way you’d leave clever little jokes in my locker. I can see a couple hugging and miss the way you’d hold me. I miss the thump-thump-thump of your heart. I felt so safe in your arms, like nothing could ever harm me. I should have been holding you. I should have protected you…..I shouldn’t have let you leave that night. No, I should have went with you. Then maybe the car crash would have killed me and kept you safe. I hope you’re safe now, Eth. I’m sorry I wasn’t there when it happened, E. I miss you everyday, my baby boy. I hope you’re lighting up heaven with that contagious smile.