"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Hey Blondie, I kinda miss you, like I admit it. Me writing this letter to you is hypocritical of my part you know? Cause I know that what I really want is admit a few things to myself, but Wellington, never mind (Nevermind haha). Well, at first, I want to say what you meant to me and my life, you were the first guy I’ve ever like, so believe me, you meant a lot (still meaning) cause you know, my life suddenly became something that really turned around you and what you liked, cause I wanted to impress you, I wanted you to like me, and then I found out that tou did like me, oh my god I was so happy. After this, we talked a lot, and how much more I knew you, more I liked you. And finally, after really meet eachother, we kissed. Was my distribuição kiss, and was good, I was soooo happy and soooo in love with you boy, you have no ideia. And after that everything that was doing so well, suddenly fell apart. You disappeared, didn’t talked to me anymore, no texto, no calls, and I was freaking out already, but then, I had the briliant ideia of ask news froom you for your friend, that with a fucking irony Said: “why do you wanna know? He already got what what he wanted”. Oh god, that broke me, let me in pieces, I cried all night and keep saying for myself how stupid I was, cause I really felt that I was.
A few weeks later I was better, you didn’t contacted me in any Wayne, but I was starting to deal with that, so I did go out with some friends, and there was this guy, James Gabriel, kinda handsome, interesting , smart, and well, he liked me, so I kissed him, was not even close of how it was with you, but happened anyway. At that same night, you texted me, “Hey flower, I ‘m sorry I didn’t talk to you, was with problems with my phone and wen I fixed I’ve just travel with mu family and didn’t bring the phone”, I didn’t believe, so I didn’t answer, and then, tou called me, you explained everything, every detail I asked, all the history and the reason you didn’t bring your phone to the trip, and well, I didn’t know what to believe anymore, until I told you I kissed Gabriel, and you stared cry, you cried so loud omg, I felt like a monster, and I was one actually. You were not lying and I discovered that later, and I breaked tour heart, I wanted you to feel as hurt as I didn’t, but I didn’t know that you hurted was hurt me too.
We were part of the same group of friends so we keep seeing eachother, we had too, but you didn’t talk to me and I didn’t talk to you, and that hurted so much, I’ve ruined you that night, and I’ve ruined what we had, what we would possibly have, and both of us memories of liking someone for the first time. And it was like that for months, you treated me bad, I ignored you and we were always talking nas with eachother, but you did still looking at me that way with those beautifull green/ blue eyes, still telling me jokes and doing everything you could to site by my side on the couch, so yeah, you confused me a lot cause everytime I tried to get close of you again, you pushed me away, so I gave up, but you keep calling me to talk about your day every weekend, pushing me back to you again, and I think you wanted me back, you wanted what we had back, you told that to your best friends once, but I also knew you wouldn’t teu again, cause you were afraid to get hurt again, and I would be too. So I wnat you to know that If you feel guilty for confusing me like you did and also hurt me with your bipolar way of treating me, I forgive you, I really really forgive you, cause I love you so much to keep any memories or feeling about tou that is not good, beautifull and warm. And I want tou to know that even now, that you’re gonne, and I Know I can’t have tou back I still blaming myself for not had try hard enough to have tou back , I’m so Sorry, is my fault that we didn’t work togheter , and I Know it, I still think that If I haven’t kiss him, we would be happy at that time befour you live. I love you OK light eyes? You have a space insiste my heart forever. With so much love