"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Hey. I’m a potterhead. And Severus Snape has always been my favorite. It broke my heart when Severus died and you, Alan Rickman died. I miss you. I wish I met you before you went to a better place. But I really hope you’re doing well there.

Anyway, I was thinking, have you ever felt sorry for yourself? Or even for your character Severus Snape. I mean, Severus has been good all the time but he let everyone thinks he’s the bad guy. All this time, his heart has always been filled with love yet everyone thinks he’s the most heartless person next to Tom Riddle.

I know exactly how it feels to be unable to explain yourself. When all you mean is good but no matter how hard you try, nobody understands you. And when everyone finally realizes that you don’t mean anything bad, it’s already too late.

I’m sorry that your character died in the most painful way I could ever think of. Severus died without being able to clean his name to other people. Well maybe he did but it was already too late.

I feel like dying right now. I feel lonely. I just need someone to understand me. I pushed people away so that they won’t get involved. I don’t want to be a burden. I’m just trying to protect them from me but they think I’m just being brat who always thinks about herself. And as of now, I’m tired explaining myself. Defending myself. I’m tired shouting at the top of my lungs but everybody is just too busy ignoring me. I’m tired.

I miss you, Alan. You will always be my favorite. Please be happy all the time.