"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Things are getting so hard and it’s starting to feel like I don’t have a purpose anymore. I have no idea what to do with my life and I don’t even know if I’m gonna be able to graduate on time this year. I’m sorry, I know I let all of you down. You probably look at me from wherever you are and wish I wasn’t part of your family. I’m so alone. I don’t have any friends and I’m making myself stay in an emotionally abusive relationship because I don’t want to be more alone than I already am. I feel like I have no impact on anybody’s lives, there’s always somebody more important. I’m so sorry for the person I’ve become, I’m know I’m a disappointment. But please don’t forget that y’all still have such an important spot in my heart. I wish all of you could be here. I feel like things would be normal because I would have my childhood happiness back. I miss home so much. I love you.