"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Why? Why? Why? Why? if you knew you were going to take your own life that awful night why did you shoot at the Deputys? Why did you shoot and KILL my hero Deputy Carl Koontz and wound Sargent Jordan Buckley only to turn around and take your own life? Do you not understand how much Koontz meant to this town? Do you realize you killed a cop over a stupid warrant that had to do with drugs. DRUGS. You took so much away from this town because you were the pussy who didn’t want to go back to jail. Word of advice. If you didn’t want to go back to jail maybe you should of stayed out of trouble. Just a thought though. Instead you took a dad away from his son, a husband away from his wife, a brother from his sister and a child from his parents. How does that make you feel? I hope you feel awful, I hope you are paying for what you did. You make me sick. You make me want to scream. You make me want to loose my mind. But I wont. I wont because Koontz wouldn’t want it. To be honest had Koontz lived he would have been the type of guy to forgive you, even when you didn’t deserve it.