"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

It’s been almost 3 years since you left this world but it’s still feels like it was yesterday. Everytime someone mentions you my eyes get full of pain.

I still remember the exact moment when I got the new, I was sleeping and my best friend stayed with me, then at 3:00 am my mom entered my room and woke me up. She just told me we had to make a trip, at first I got really excited because that meant seeing you and all the family, but just a second later I realized my mom was crying so I got really really scared because I didn’t understand, then she just said “it’s your grandpa” and then I knew…it was the most terrifying moment of my life.

My best friend tried to calm me, she helped put my clothes in the suitcase because I just sat in my bed thinking I needed black clothes.

The way to the airport and the trip itself all of us were very silent. As soon as we arrived to your house I started crying because I knew for sure that not ever again you will come out and received us with open arms.

I miss you, and I don’t say to anyone not even to myself because it’s hard just to think about it. I never got the chance you say goodbye to you, to say how important you were to me, and that I will regret my entire life.

But today I just want to say thank you, for your love and support, and thank you for teaching me to seize the day, to say ‘I love you’ whenever I feel to, because you never know when it would be the last time you say it.

Wherever you are I know you’re caring for us and I will always carry you in my heart.