"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Its going to be 4 years since you left me. I still cant seem to let you go, and each year without you gets harder. I finally found someone I can trust, his name is Erik. You would have liked him. he has always been there for me….and he plans n always being with me. I still rather be spending my nights talking to you. I miss your minty smell, your tattooed arms, your big hugs, and the way you always quoted Rudolph when Clarise calls him cute. I no watch NCIS all the time, its my way of knowing that part of you is still here. I loved you…I love you, so much, I wish I could have another day, moment that I could share with you. I want to say my goodbye, hug you one more time, let you know how much I love you. I wish you would have never asked them to discharge you, you could have gotten better, still been here. Sometimes I still sense your presence, here weird voices. Ill find random things of your in places they weren’t before. I know your still here, somewhere…but do you care enough to come back to me….to fix the innocent heart you shattered that night. I love you grandpa, so much, I just wish you were here.