"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Hii, I hope you are well. I did talk to my lecturer about how I feel,but it doesn’t help that much..I don’t know what to do,grandpa. I can feel myself slowly becoming unmotivated and I really don’t want to feel like that,I’m trying so so hard to be optimistic. But omg , it’s so damn hard. I’m pretty sure my grades are showing off my attitude towards learning. I know I still want to learn, but I’m doubting myself a lot when I’m in school,the subjects I’m taking,did I choose the right choice? My parents don’t know anything about it. I guess, I’m back to square 1, bottling up everything. I want to talk to someone,but I’m so scared. My parents have expectation of me and I don’t want to disappoint them ,you know? I feel like I’m in a stage of life where I’m figuring my pathway ,my decisions and especially,what do I aspire to be in the future? I don’t even know my aspirations. Everything is going down hill and I feel so shitty everyday,grandpa. I really want things to get better and I’m trying so hard to be strong everyday. It’s so tiring.