"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

You may have been gone since 1/22/08 and i forgot that you have until i watched 10 Things I Hate About You on Netflix and fell in love with the movie and Patrick. So i looked up the cast and clicked on you. It said you died and then it hit me, i remember my mom telling me from seeing it on the news. I was 6 and you were 28, which is too young to die. After the realization you arent in any new movies i went through a small time of sadness and i mourned your death like it just happened. Then i watched the Dark Knight and praised the way you executed the Joker. You are my favorite Joker and that is one of my favorites but 10 Things I Hate About You will always be my #1 and i finally purchased the movie!! Then i watched A Knights Tale which was funny and made me laugh at the characters and your acting was great as always. I want to see Lords of Dogtown so badly because you played Skip and its about skateboarding which seems good. I havent seen any of your other movies though , but i will one someday. I was still sad so i googled you and read news stories and watched youtube videos, interviews and saw posts of you from fans. Your little Matilda is adorable and a mini you and i hope the best for her always. I was upset that you died from pills i know it was an accident i wont believe it was suicide because you were overwhelmed you wouldnt leave your daughter, she was your everything. I cried sometimes thinking about you and what you left behind and your legacy. Someone said you will only not matter anymore until the heart of your last fan stops beating. But that will be far from ever. I will always be a fan of you even if i became one when it was too late. I wanna meet you someday, sit down and just talk and listen to your Aussie accent. When it was April 4th i wished you a Happy Birthday even though it was a sad day. I googled your name and saw a documentary was coming out and i got soo excited. It was gonna come out on May 17th on Spike tv at 10pm when time came closer i scrolled through the channels and prerecorded it. I got home from school the next day and watched it. It was beautiful. It was so beautiful, i cried, i laughed, but i enjoyed every minutte of it. The homemade videos was my favorite and your camcorder taking videos and photos everywhere. What an amazing person you seemed, after watching it i began to take photography more seriously. Thanks to you!! I listen to the song Perth everyday by Bon Iver since it was played in your documentary when you were smiling and spinning the camera enjoying life in the video i attached. One day i will go to Perth, Australia and i will visit your grave which will make my day and be the closest thing as to meeting you. Im gonna order your documentary off Amazon since my mom acidentally deleted it off of our DVR. But owning it is so much more worth it. Heath, I have mourned you, and cried and laughed. Your movies bring me happiness, why else would i watch 10 things so many times? You are my favorite actor and i listen to you sing “Cant Take My Eyes Off Of You” daily because its my favorite scene from my favorite movie and I just close my eyes and picture you dancing and singing to Kat. I had a dream one time i was in my church and walked by the pews and you were sitting in the secon pew from the front and i walked up to you and hugged you. Everytime i go to church i stare at that pew and just rethink my dream and picture you sitting there and just waiting for you to turn around and smile. Theres more i could say but this is all i can for now. I know i will meet you one day. Thanks for showing me how life should be lived but longer than you should have. I love you Heath Ledger ♡