"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I miss you. It’s been two years and two days and it’s still so hard to believe. There’s not a day when your name doesn’t cross my mind and break my heart. I would do anything to see you again. To talk to you again. To stay up all night on facetime, laughing at the stupid videos we would find on Instagram; just one more time. There are so many things I wish that I could say to you but I can’t. There are moments when I want to pick up my phone, I want to call you, I want to talk to you and my heart shatters each and every time I have to remind myself that you won’t pick up.
I think the silence in the entire school made the day I found out so much more heartbreaking. You couldn’t hear a locker door close or open, everyone was speechless and red in the face. The whole school was dead silent. Each step I took closer to your locker the faster the tears rolled down my cheeks. The kind of tears that you can´t control no matter how hard you try. The kind of tears that make your throat swell. I turned to see that I wasn´t alone. Each face I passed on the way to your locker was red with tears flowing down their faces; just like mine. The sobs grew louder and louder and green balloons, decorations and pictures of you at every turn forced me to recognize the harsh truth of it all. You were gone.
I had to have my mom pick me up. It hurt so bad and all I wanted, was to wake up and realize that it was all a dream. I just wanted it to be fake, I wanted it to be a crazy nightmare that I had. But it wasn´t. Everything after that was so hard. Your memorial, the holidays.
Sometimes I feel wrong that you not hear. It feels wrong that you’re gone. It isn’t fair to you or anyone that loved you. You missed your first formal dance, your first homecoming, being a freshman. The right to grow into the person you were meant to be was wrongfully ripped from you within a few hours. We should be growing up together.
You made such a beautiful impact on everyone around you. You had this natural joy that always seemed to make everyone’s day better. You always knew the right thing to say and, you just wanted what was best for everyone. You were a true earth angel and I ́m so very lucky that I ever got to call you my friend. Thank you for everything. For all the smiles, for all the laughs and truly blessing anyone whos ever crossed your path. Your kind soul inspired me to be the best that I can me. Because of you, I strive to give others happiness. Thank you. I miss you.