"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I have been thinking a lot about you guys lately…I haven’t cut or harmed myself in any way for almost 4 months now which is good. I wish you guys were still here to help me with stuff and everything in general. I just got done reading this book about 5 minutes ago and it was definitely the best book i have ever read. Anyway…uncle doug, cancer sucks dont it? yea i know but you know better then anyone that im writing too. I cant believe you were only in your 40’s…its too young. Grandma patti, im washing my hands a lot haha, but i miss you so so much. Mom and aunt kari are talking again and i know you would be happy as can be to know that. Grammie and pa, I wish i could have known you guys better i can only remember a few things since you both passed away when i was so young…I do remember pa spilling soup on me and grammie helping with the burns, and how you used to call me joey and i would get mad saying im not a boy, and how you would take teddy from me and hide him and i would get mad but you would always give him back before i got too sad. Grammie, dad showed me a note a few months ago that he found that you wrote while you were still alive. You were writing to the lady who makes dolls and wanted her to make one of me and Emma. You were describing us and i couldnt stop crying. Basically what im trying to say here is that i miss you all and i love you guys so so so so much.