"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I know this is supposed to be a letter to the dead which you are not but I have some things to get off my chest…
Im scared. yeah I know me being scared? I didnt think it was possible either. But then you sped your way into my life again and it was as if the universe was slowed to a halt. I met you when I was 3. I was there when your mother died. and I was still at your side four years later. And then I got sick, and I was living in a hospital for almost two years. Then I got better. But you were gone. Then I ran into you and your brother when we were both 20 and when I saw you again after all those lonley years, something inside me broke…. and I knew I had fallen for you, and fallen hard. I remember you wrapping me in a bone crushing hug, saying that you were never gonna leave me again. and you didnt. Hell right now your down the hallway from me, blasting your music and reading. Anyways, here it is, in all its thorny beauty… I love you. And it scares the hell out of me. I dont know what to do De. Im just so scared.