"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I know you are not dead and the point of this is to right letters to dead people but I´m my heart you feel dead. I feel like you are really dead inside and that it´s hard to live in this world. I hope that Charlotte brings a new light into your life that gives you reason to live again and that you can be a better mother for her than you were for Aidan and I. I just want to let you know that I love you more than you could ever know and that I just want to see you again and hug you and never let go. When I was three I saw you as my hero but when I was four and you and dad got a divorce I didn’t anymore. Now here I am at 13 and I hardly ever see you and my sister. There are so many questions I have for you that are for only you. I can ask anyone else because no one would ever understand. I think that Is one of the many reasons why I am depressed and suicidal because of everything Aidan and I were put through at a young age not knowing anything about life. And After you and dad got a divorce I thought that the world hated me and that It owed me so much but now I realize that the world doesn’t owe me a cent. I don´t know, I just don’t know anything anymore. I wish that I could be with you again so I can tell you everything that I feel. I feel like Iḿ letting down Callie and Dad and that everything I do just disappoints them even more. I know that they want me to be something great when I grow up but I don’t think that I can. They think that I want to be a vet when I grow up because that is what I told them two years ago but now I just want to be nothing. I just want to disappear forever. I mean I can even tell Callie and Dad that Iḿ Bi because I feel like they are going to hate me even more. But I know that If I could tell you that, you wouldn’t care and you would still love me for who I am. Wouldn’t you? I love you more than you could ever know and I hope that you can finally be a good mother for Charlotte. If not for me, than do It for her. Please.