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I miss you every single day. Sometimes I start to think there I can’t live without you. Everyday of my life I think about you and about all the things that we never did together, you was my sun, my reason to live, my anchor, but today I don’t know how to survive. I hope that one day I gonna hug you again and you are gonna whispher that everything is gonna be alright. I will always love you, please, don’t forget that.

Times have been kind of tough with grandma Toni. Her Parkinson’s is getting worse at a quicker rate than we thought it would. So me, Sam and my mom try to go over there as much as we possibly can to try and calm her down and give her people to talk too. Because we all know you were right about Scott, he hasn´t done anything to help any of else get through this or try and keep it under control. When all of his friends are around he wants to make everyone think he is this concerned loving husband, when he is not at all. Also Allie being in Florida is tough for grandma just because she doesn´t know what one of her kids is doing at all times like she does with my mom and William. So the extra stress of having her gone is what we think is also contributing to the fact that her disease is getting worse. I am not trying to write this to get you upset I am just trying to give you a little update on everyones lives. Grandma has finally stopped ¨seeing¨ people because we changed her medicine ... Read more

I would like to tell you that no matter what happens I will always be your little princess. I miss you so much already, I know it’s been 15 years already but I don’t want to forgive myself for being a not so nice grand daughter to you. I have been so bad to you, I even talk back to you. But even though I did that I know deep inside me that I love you so much. The time that you’re not doing well at the hospital mom told me that you looked for me, your favorite grand daughter. I know you can’t read this though, but I just want to vent this all out. I love you Lolo.

I miss you so much. 10 years.

Hi goober, I miss you beyond words. I am devastated you have gone so soon. You were the best cat ever. You always made the family laugh and you somehow never ran out of energy. I say you were the best cat, but we all know you acted like a dog 24/7. I love how you made a huge mess when you ate your food, most of the food on the floor instead of in your bowl. I love how you never drank out of your water fountain, but instead you’d drink from our cups, the toilets, or the bath tubs. I love how you always laid in my bed even if that meant you had to climb the ladder to reach the top bunk. I love how whenever I was sad or sitting alone you jumped up next to me and kept me warm. I love how you were chunky. I love how you would chase the laser pointer around the house like a mad man. I love how you meowed at nothing. I love how you would push my bedroom door open and wake me up for no reason at ungodly hours of the night. I love everything ... Read more

It has been a year since you died. I miss you a lot. I haven’t seen you since I was 8 or so, but you’re still my dad. I am 15. I started my freshman year. I wasn’t going great for a few months. I met someone and things didn’t end well. I still struggle with it. Are you with Grandpa John? I hope so. I hope everything is okay between you two. I know things were probably difficult with him and Gran getting a divorce, and I don’t know if you and Grandpa John had the best relationship. I heard you used to get into a lot of fights. I started listening to Gorrilaz and a few other bands you’d like. Mom told me that you’d be proud of me. It was a year or so ago, but I remember it very well. I was sleeping in her room and she was turned to the wall, but I heard her say it. I think she was crying. I hope you are proud of me. Rick is my adoptive father now. He’s okay, but I miss you. He can be scary sometimes. He doesn’t hurt mom or me, but he ... Read more

Hi Grandma It’s not so long ago that you died. I think of you every day and I wonder what I should have done so you could be here a little longer. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry I didn’t make it. I had no idea that your artery near your heart would burst and you would disappear like a bright golden powder from a bell. I don’t feel as happy as before, and only because fate took you away from me. He took you from me and there’s nothing I can do about it. Thank God I have Max here. You liked him and im so happy about that because he is my first boyfriend. We love each other. We really love each other. I love him and it makes my life a little more beautiful in these difficult moments. Not even all the words from the Czech language you taught me would describe how I feel about Max. I love him and I thank you for being happy for me. We talk about you sometimes and we both love you so much. I hate the world for robbing me of you. The world took you and im so angry ... Read more

I still remember the day I heard about you passing away like it was yesterday. Never did I think I would lose my step-brother. I was at cheer camp when I got told you were gone. I could not even except the fact that it was true, it didnt seem right. My heart sunk and I had no words to even come out of my mouth, I just felt the tears running down my face. I wish I got the chance to have one more full family dinner with you there or even vacation. You made those so much more memorible. I miss seeing you´re smile when I walked into my dads house. I still listen to you´re songs all the time and I wish you would´ve got to go farther with them. You´re so talented at it. No holidy has been the same at dads since you left, I always feel like theres a piece missing. I loved when you danced in the middle of the kitchen to any song that came on while our parents were cooking. We still talk about you all the time. I hate that I never got to say goodbye to you, I ... Read more

You died when I was around 10 it was sad and messed me up emotionally. I feel like you were more like my support animal then just a dog you were weak and very sick before you died and I wish you didn’t have to go through that because no dog deserves to be in pain. You were a very loving dog and a lot of people enjoyed having you around you somehow always knew when someone was sad or hurt and you always knew how to help. Its been around 6 years since you died and I got a new dog but nothing could replace the memories and you following me around all the time.

I know I never really got to know you since you passed when I was only a few months old but I miss you even though I don’t remember you. Dad was really messed up after you died; it changed him or ,well, that’s what my mom tells me, how he acted after was one of the reasons they split up actually. I’ve never lived with my dad before, after they split I was always with my mom and it’s been that way for 15 years until just recently. Now that I had to move up here with him it’s not great, I mean there are good days and maybe it’s everything else but I miss home and I don’t know what to do. I was always told you were the best listener and with advice so I wish you were still around to help me. I’m struggling right now, for the first time my grades are dropping and I’ve stopped caring about myself, nothing is going my way and I’m scared because I’m completely lost and I can’t bring myself to talk about it with anyone. I guess I got that from you huh? It’s the strangest thing ya ... Read more