"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I know you’re going to read this and think, “She’s so stupid, I’m not dead.” I’m not stupid, I can literally see you right in front of me. So, I’m writing this to you as if you were dead. As if you weren’t here anymore, just so you can hear what I have to say before you go. Which hopefully isn’t on your own time. Okay, here we go. You were my best friend. The person who I go to whenever there is a problem, or the person that I would go to just for a laugh. It’s hard to believe you’re gone. Everyone always says, “Give it time,” but I can’t. Who can I walk with to class everyday with and laugh and make fun of people? Who can I randomly laugh at from across the classroom. Who can I cheat on APUSH tests with by using ASL? I don’t think I could ever do that with anyone but you. You were everything to me. I can never forget Spanish II our freshman year. We were idiots basically. I mean granted, we did do just fine, but we were still extremely stupid. I loved eating with you, or ... Read more

I’m really sorry that we never met. As I grow older I think of you more and more. I hear about how good of a person you were, god never should’ve taken you the way he did. I love hearing stories about you, even though I haven’t heard many. I want to ask more but it hurts everyone too much to tell. From what I heard I think we would’ve gotten along very well. My dad always tells me how you would’ve loved us. Once a year the family goes to a special mass just for you. I wished I would have served it when I had the option, I’m sorry that I said no. I hate myself when I start to become jealous of everyone that had the opportunity to meet you. I get angry that cancer took you before we even had the chance to meet. I think about if you’ve watched us all grow up over the years. My life would have been much different if you were there with me. Whenever I pass by your picture on the shelf I climb on the couch to take it down. I hold it ... Read more

It went from you sitting at my lunch table, to us being best friends. We immediately clicked. No one understood my like you did. We laughed together about the stupidest things. It was like your were my meant to be best friend. Even though you aren’t actually dead, our friendship is. You meant everything to me . We played Minecraft until 3am, we watched movies, and went through boy drama together. We went to Kings Island and did the dumbest things. We went to a fair so you could see your crush and I would third wheel and take silly pictures of you two. You were my number one supporter and calmed down my anxiety drastically. Summer hit and you went boating with my family. That same summer, you went on vacation and became a changed person. Not changed but it seems as though you forgot me. In the blink of an eye, you were gone. I lost you, and I don’t know how or why. You became best friends with someone else, that’s completely okay. As long as you’re happy, I’m happy. Sometimes I try to see if I can fix our friendship, but it never turns ... Read more

I cant imagine life without you right now you were the best sister i ever had now that your gone i feel like there is nothing to do without you in my life yea we had our problems like every other siblings. we used to play outside we alot of fun i just wish you were here right now

i miss you alot i didnt really get the chance to spend time with you like other kids do with there fathers…But in the end your in a better place…i guess im trying to say is i forgive you for everything.I know you were strung out and i always wanted to know the sober you…But i never got to meet the real you…but i hope and pray your happy now sometimes i get this wave of grief and i cry im only 14 and lost you dad:( if god is really out there hope to keep you safe…I LOVE YOU DAD..

The first time I heard about you I was around 12, I remember my mom and dad were watching “Stand by me”, then my mom told me that my dads Young years were closed to the movie, he was raised in a Christian stricked family, and my mom was raised in a more liberal and wild family, nowadays I beg that they show that movie on TV so I can get to know you. I dont know why but I feel pretty closed to you, yeah you were cute and everything but I feel like we were supposed to be friends or something like that.About a year ago I read fot the first time “Love letters to the dead” and I could avoid feeling like Laurel, my sister didnt died or something like that, she moved and my parents got divorced, so yeah, basically I was kinda like Laurel. River, I know that I am going to do big Things, everyone say that to me “you are going to do great Things” “an engineer!” “a writer” blahblahblah… I dont want to be something like that I want to be an actress, wait no, I am going to be an actress, you know? ... Read more

Hola tal vez puedas cumplir tus sueños ,tal vez no pero todo al final del camino es brillante y hermoso, es como si escribieras en un libro las cosas que quieres y se te cumplieran al instante, como si al escribir una carta estuvieras realizando todas tus metas . Muchas veces hay un mundo secreto que tarde o temprano hay que enfrentar, con ayuda o sin ayuda todo comienza y todo termina.

As much as you might not be literally dead, it seems like you are. My best friend for a year. The one who showed me what it was like to really have a friend. You left me at my lowest, and I don’t expect you to come back. Telling me I’m the reason she hurts herself. And that I’m just a rebound and my feelings are invalid. I’m sorry that I hurt you those times, but you didn’t have to do this. You didn’t have to leave me. I know that if you came back I’d let you in but I can’t this time. So don’t come back. I’ll just pretend you’re on a long extended vacation. Just as we did before. I love you abah, my friend forever. This is my goodbye.

Poslední dobou na tebe pořád myslím. Je smutné, že jsem tě nemohla víc poznat. Chtěla bych a omlouvám se, že jsem si tě nevážila víc, když jsi tu ještě byla. V životě se mi stalo tolik věcí a to mi je teprve 15. Mam ale pocit, že všechno co se mi stalo víš, že jsi mě tam zeshora pozorovala a dohlížela jsi na nás. Snad se tam máš dobře. Je to už 9 let. Chybíš mi, strašně moc. Měj se tam nahoře hezky a drž mi palce ať v tom našem světě uspeju.

Please, just be happy. I hope you´r in a better place. You were young and sad. But it hurt, I didn´t want to believe this reality. … It´s long way… so… one day at the other side… … I promise … I´ll remember the memories with You…