"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Having a sister is like having a confidant, best friend and an enemy at the same time. You live knowing each other and seeing each other grow from a girl to lady and finally, a woman. However, you two face different phases in life which means, you do not go through each phase at the same time – in a way, you grow apart.

The challenge of having a sister is the challenge of communication. One thing that’s best to practice in sisterhood is communication. You do not grow together having the same struggles but if you do talk to each other and be each other’s reminders then maybe growing apart may not be that negative. I see a lot of sisters who grew up together and they still have a bond, as well I know sisters who grew up apart having a barrier. I wonder, what if they knew the magic of communication?

Laurel has seen in you so much positivity and light that when she saw you fly through the course of the wind; she found her world shut. She totally forgot of all other things than – my sister’s dead. It must have been hard for you to ... Read more

Desde que partiste hace 2 años pude descubrir que no todas las personas se encuentran bien por el simple hecho de sonreir, después de haber prestado a a tus canciones y tu libro logre ver que tu necesitabas ese descanso tan merecido que ahora tienes, espero que te encuentre bien (realmente bien) y que me estés viendo desde alguna estrella Deseo de todo corazón que tu gira por las estrellas este fantástica y que la disfrutes Te extraño mucho

hi baby, you’ve been gone for ten weeks and I miss you too much I’m having a panic attack or maybe an embarrassment attack because I need to do something for college but I feel, once again, so inadequate I feel like I don’t have any words I feel like I cant talk I feel like I cant say anything I feel like I’m gonna die I feel so bad and embarrassed and helpless and defeated and there’s nothing I can do about it jack last night I was listening to a recording I made last year of m having a breakdown and at one point I heard your voice you were in my recording and I’m so glad your voice was there but I feel so bad that it’s no longer here yesterday I told mom that life is good and that I like living and that even though life is shit a lot of the time it is also beautiful and there’s a lot for me to do still and I said “because yes jack died, but that was only one day. he lived with us for nine years and that’s what I keep” but I’m not sure I believe this I ... Read more

Everything will be allright.

ya tiene 8 años desde que nos dejaste te extraño demasiado jamas pasamos tanto tiempo juntas ni me viste crecer realmente a ninguno de tus nietos jamas nos conociste a fondo pero eso no justifica que no sienta dolor por no haberte conocido a fondo al contrario me hubiera encantado conocerte mejor pero donde sea que te encuentres espero que te sientas orgullosa de mi la familia te extraña pero siempre estaras viva en nuestro corazones .

hi, so, I’m 20 years old. Its really a weird age grandpa, some of my friends are engaged, getting married, some are in probation or in jail for doing drugs. Its kind of confusing, I feel like its the age where everyone really have no choice but to act like an adult ? Idk. Some days, I wake up, I can’t believe that I’m 20 too. I feel like, every year, it really gets harder and harder. But, I really like to believe that I’m getting stronger too. But who knows if I’m really getting stronger? Can you believe that I’m graduating next year? Wouldn’t it be better if you got to see it in person too? :/ I hope you’re proud of me. I miss you, a lot.

a lot of years passed since I saw you the last time and I can say it still hurts when I think about you. I know that you wouldn’t want that I am still angry about the doctors but they did something wrong and I can never forgive them.

I miss you these days the most, especially when I have problems with boys or I struggle in school. I wanna talk with you about it, I wanna cry on your shoulder and I wanna hear your opinion. It was always important for me and it will always be.

Dear Grandma… I hope you are now on a happier place and you still look down to make sure that I am fine. I promise you that I will meet you on your on the other side. Until then, I try to make you proud of me.

I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back. <3

Eu sei, faz tempo que eu não apareço aqui. Eu só não sei mais sobre o que escrever, o que devo te contar e tudo mais. Apesar disso, não te esqueci e você tem estado comigo todos os dias desde então.

Bom, eu devo ter te contado que ela aceitou sair comigo, mas não acho que vá acontecer. Tudo bem, pois eu só quero isso se ela também quiser, não por questão de ego ou carência. Te atualizo caso tenha alguma novidade sobre o assunto.

Ah, minha mãe vai viajar, ela está radiante. Eu e o pai vamos ficar em casa, pretendo contar para ele, veremos como as coisas vão estar.

Eu volto quando tiver novidades relevantes. Muita luz para você, Taz. Amo você.

I wish you would’ve taken the treatment option and had surgery. A life with you but without your voice is a million times better than life without you. Life is a mess since you left us, B took nanny hostage. Nanny isn’t doing okay. She needed you to stay living but you choose to do an option that you know would kill you and did it anyways. I think your selfish for not thinking of the rest of your family because you wanted to keep your voice but we would have made it work for you. You have missed out on so much since you left us. My brother got married and him and his wife are having a baby. Caroline is getting so big. Nanny has hearing aids now, stressed induced dementia, B took her license away and now she is trapped. Dad is having more heart issues. Oh, and I won’t have you there when i get married and that makes me not want to ever get married. I needed you to be there to walk me through everything in my life like you did for 18 years. I hated when you refused treatment, I hated seeing you cold and ... Read more

This is the first letter I write to you and even though I’ve always been a writer I’m not sure I’m doing this right. But here I go.

Not a day goes by without thinking of you, how much I need you and most of all I miss you… I’m not gonna lie, it has been pretty hard since you left,sometimes I feel like I’m carrying the weight of mom and my brother and it’s an overwhelming feeling.

You’ll be happy to know that mom is doing better everyday, she told me she wants to do all the things you had planned! My brother is busy in college and I got my first job. The pay is not that good but I’m learning a lot and now I talk on the phone all the time… Can you believe it? Me, on the phone! You won’t believe how many times I’ve dialed your phone number hoping that you’ll answer. Don’t worry I’m not actually calling. I don’t want to scare the new owner.

I hope you’re doing better than when you were here, I know it was for the best. Maybe I’ll write to update you on how we’re doing.

Ps.I want a tattoo, maybe ... Read more