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It’s been 2 years without you. Since you have been gone I’ve been in soo much pain knowing that you will never be able to come back. I cry myself to sleep each night but I pray to god that he will tell you that I love you soo much! I wish you have seen me turned to a teenager but you didn’t 😩 I wish you could see me graduate in 3 years ❤️ But I know that you will be watching me from heaven . Everyday is a challenge for me knowing someone I was very close to has left 😖 it crushes my soul. So far right now my life has been terrible. I made bad choices and mistakes. I feel like I’m going on a wrong path. But I’m trying my best to make you proud of me. Dad don’t worry I will go to college and get a degree and become somebody! I pray my soul will rest easy when I die. No pain, no sadness, everything is perfect and I will be with you ❤️ Bless you dad

É estranho que você esteja em tantas coisas, mas também é bom, assim sempre tenho um pedacinho de ti no meu dia, mesmo que não do jeito que eu queria. Sinto muito que eu tenha demorado demais. Isso não é bem culpa, porque sei que te amei com todo meu coração e minha inocência, ainda amo, muito. Em alguns momentos é como se você ainda estivesse aqui, até esqueço que tudo mudou e sorrio com alguma memória boba. Minha mãe contou que a música que eu mais gostava era a da Borboletinha e que você cantava o tempo todo. Obrigada, por fazer tudo mais especial, por colorir a minha vida.

Estou com saudades, Taz.

ESTA CARTA ES PARA TI QUERIDA AVA:

SABES HACE DOS AÑOS TUVE A MI TERCER HIJO Y AL MES DE NACIDO FALLECIÓ; POR UN PROBLEMA EN SU CORAZÓN. PARA MI Y MI ESPOSO HA SIDO ALGO INSUPERABLE. EN MI CASO TUVE QUE IR AL PSICÓLOGO PERO NO FUE DE GRAN AYUDA. LEÍ LA BIBLIA Y JESÚS ME HIZO COMPRENDER MUCHAS COSAS INCUESTIONABLES. HACE MENOS DE UN AÑO COMPRE TU LIBRO Y HA SIDO FANTÁSTICO. CON TUS LETRAS TOCASTE LA FIBRAS MAS SENSIBLES EN MI, LLORE INFINIDAD DE VECES , HAY MUCHAS FRASES QUE MUESTRAN MIS SENTIMIENTOS Y ME AYUDASTE A SUPERAR MUCHOS MIEDOS. OJALA Y ESTE LIBRO LO PUEDAS LLEVAR A UNA PELÍCULA; SERIA UN GRAN DESEO MIO, AYUDARÍAS A MUCHAS PERSONAS.

When I think about you My whole world falls through

There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about our long conversations. It’s crazy to think that it’s been 4 years since we last spoke. You were my rock for so long, I’ve still never been able to replace the type of friendship we had. I talked about everything. From my relationship with your grandson to my relationship with my own mother. It’s hard still walking into the hospital and or the nursing home where we spent most of our time together… I thought over time it would get better, but as the years go on there is so much that you missed out on. Drew and I got married. Idk if this would of been exactly what you wanted, but we are officially family now. I’m so sorry that I couldn’t save you. I’m sorry that you missed our wedding. I’m sorry that I’m writing you a letter and not telling you this face to face. I wish I could go back in time and make our friendship last longer because I really would LOVE to just hear you give me that great advice. You never steered me in the wrong direction. ... Read more

É ridículo que você não esteja mais aqui, Taz.

I’ve been meaning to write this letter for what feels like forever. Sometimes I think about you, and it feels unreal you’re not here anymore, and you had to go that way. One of my biggest fears, is forgetting the memories I have with you , those of which I can still remember. I want to tell you that I miss you so much. Sometimes I’ll be fine, but then I walk past your picture in the hallway, and my eyes are welled with tears. It hurts knowing this sadness will never go away, but it gets better with time. I feel really guilty, when I get happy, about being so preoccupied with everything going on , I forget to think of you. I’m just proud of myself for moving forward, despite the tragedies I’ve gone through. The last couple of years have been eventful, to say the least. There have definitely been more downs than ups, but I’ve learned that I am worthy and capable of continuing on. Ate and kuya are both in college now, and I’m a sophomore in high school. I ... Read more

I’ve been meaning to write this letter for what feels like forever. Sometimes I think about you, and it feels unreal you’re not here anymore, and you had to go that way. One of my biggest fears, is forgetting the memories I have with you , those of which I can still remember. I want to tell you that I miss you so much. Sometimes I’ll be fine, but then i walk past your picture in the hallway, and my eyes are welled with tears. It hurts knowing this sadness will never go away, but it gets better with time. I feel really guilty when I get happy about being so preoccupied with all that’s going on , I forget to think of you. I’m just proud of myself for moving forward, despite the tragedies I’ve gone through. The last couple of years have been eventful, to say the least. There have definitely been more downs than ups, but I’ve learned that I am worthy and capable of continuing on. Ate and kuya are both in college now, and I’m a sophomore in high school. ... Read more

I’ve been meaning to write this letter for what feels like forever. Sometimes I think about you, and it feels unreal you’re not here anymore, and you had to go that way. One of my biggest fears, is forgetting the memories I have with you , those of which I can still remember. I want to tell you that I miss you so much. Sometimes I’ll be fine, but then i walk past your picture in the hallway, and my eyes are welled with tears. It hurts knowing this sadness will never go away, but it gets better with time. I feel really guilty when I get happy about being so preoccupied with all that’s going on , I forget to think of you. I’m just proud of myself for moving forward, despite the tragedies I’ve gone through. The last couple of years have been eventful, to say the least. There have definitely been more downs than ups, but I’ve learned that I am worthy and capable of continuing on. Ate and kuya are both in college now, and I’m a sophomore in high school. ... Read more

Oii. Você era o Don Juan da família, mas talvez entenda mesmo assim. Conheci uma garota e ela é muito legal, o papo fluiu super bem. Ela me chamou para ir num evento da amiga dela, então pode existir uma chance de o interesse ser recíproco, ou eu só estou sendo boba. Nesse caso eu aceito ser boba. Ela não é a menina mais bonita do mundo, mas ela é tão única e cativante que o conjunto todo se torna belo. Me deseje sorte para conquista-la.

Amo você. Sinto sua falta, Taz.