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it’s been 3 years since you left me. alt has changed. I finish my 7th, 8th, and 9th-grade school years, and I made the soccer team and was captain this year, I would have loved for you to see me play, I wore number 7 in your honor so it would be like you with me again. I want to play softball this year, I remember you always loved to catch me playing. I miss your laugh, the way you always were there for me. I miss just you being there. the family isn’t the same. I feel like they all turned their back on me. I took honors biology my freshman year, I loved the class like you said I would but it was hard, I’m taking basic chemistry this year. I’m also in Supertech, and you’ll never guess what I’m going to school for, Vet science!! I went to the school that they had the program for and it was so good I felt such a connection with it and I started doing more research. but I also am about to tell you something really scary… I have a boyfriend!! he’s very sweet and I wish you ... Read more

So it’s been a while since we’ve talked. I know we aren’t “Best-of-friends” anymore but I still cared for you. Remember the first time we ever came up with our nicknames? It was kind of an accident actually. It was a funny inside joke until it was said every time we passed each other in the hallways or when we hang out together as a group. I’m still glad that she introduced us together. I won’t wanna say names so let’s just call her Pearl. You would call me LDawg and I would call you BDawg. Whenever we wanted to hang out, I and Pearl would knock on your window and when you were grounded, you would crawl out of the window next to the park and play ghost in the graveyard. We would also have mini-competitions with the other kids in the other apartment buildings. But… As time passes, we started seeing less and less of each other. You started to move out of the apartment and started moving on to more popular people to hang around with. One day I was at the pool and I saw you. It was kind of hard to recognize you because once ... Read more

I miss you so much. I miss walking into your house and going straight to give you a hug. I miss when we would make a princess dress out of glitter and glue. I miss going to your kitchen and getting a granola bar. I miss when we would have breakfast/ dinner together. I miss you being at my birthday parties. I miss watching family feud with you while doing crossword puzzles. You passed away some years ago. I visit your grave every year on the day you passed away and your birthday. I go with mom and we bring pretty flowers for you. We also clean your grave every chance we get. I am going to a fantastic school where by the time I graduate I can go into my dream job. I wish you could be here to witness how good I am doing. I get my license in 4 months. I love the people I am friends with. I get good grades. I always think that sometimes you’d be proud of me. Every time I think about doing something, I always say to myself “Would Grandma D approve of this?”. I hope I am making you proud ... Read more

Ever scenes you died it has been weird for me because whenever we have family reunions I always remember hearing you laugh or even having fun and it was always the best thing that made my day. It made me happy but now that you are gone I miss hearing that joy you always brought to the family. When our family was at your funeral I wanted to say something when I was at your coffin and here it is. “Paul Sharpshair it is a shame that you are gone right now you and Sam were my favorite cousin to hang out with and just to have fun like when we went into the woods by the baseball fields when we were very little. But what I’m trying to say is that you were the brightest most kind and most joyful Sharpshair to be around. when I heard you were gone I was in shock. I could not believe that the one Sharpshair that was always fun to hang out with was gone I just couldn’t believe it I just… I just had to take it in and accept it that you are gone and now I really hope that ... Read more

Its Bradyn. Even though we didn’t really see each other much, I still miss you. I can’t brag about having 3 great, great grandmothers anymore. Uncle Chris and Boppa really miss you. Especially Boppa because he was your son. I know that you would want us to be happy. After all, you were the type with a free spirit. You would want us to be happy, not because its over, but because it happened. Aiden and Taylor were in shambles at the Funeral Home. And I hope that you are happy being Cremated. And Buried next to your parents. It really would’ve been nice to see you for one last Summer. Maybe just one more lunch would’ve satisfied me. You also gave me an opportunity to see some distant family, so I guess I should thank you for that. Its crazy to me that you were doing just fine. and on the 25th of October, you finally got to meet God at the Gates of Heaven. The priest had some really great stories that I think that you would have loved to hear. In the card I got from the Funeral home, you looked so happy in your picture. ... Read more

Hey, gigi it has been 5 years since you passed away! (So Crazy). We are all so grown up now I know you have been watching every step of the way. I’m almost 16 now I have my temps and will soon be attending a school where I can pursue my dreams of becoming an oncology nurse. I’m doing it FOR YOU. Ever since you have been gone I’ve just always wanted to be a nurse and become one that helps take care of cancer patients and does everything in their power to make sure they live out the life they deserve. I haven’t exactly been the same since you left us nothing has been the same honestly… The family has broken up so much mom and dad are no longer together and haven’t been since only a few months after you passed away. You know I talk to you almost every day or at least I try to. I’ve been finally getting the help I need after being through everything I’ve been through in the past few years and honestly being traumatized. I’m really trying so hard to make everyone proud of me and make sure I have a ... Read more

I miss you so much every day I have you in the back of my mind always thinking of you. I remember when I was told about your death like it was yesterday. I have lived with you for most of my life, and you always livened up everything. When I was told you were going into a nursing home it broke me, and it felt like I had no one when I was told I knew that it was getting worse. even though you weren’t there every day when I saw you you still made me smile and laugh. You were my best friend and the one person I trusted the most. Your taking care of me most of my life made me be close to you, and I never knew how much you did for me. when I found out all that you did for me and my family I appreciated you more than you would have ever known and that I showed. I didn’t show you how much I cared before and how much you meant to me but you were someone that I loved with everything I had. I knew that your health ... Read more

I miss you so much every day I have you in the back of my mind always thinking of you. I remember when I was told about your death like it was yesterday. I have lived with you for most of my life, and you always livened up everything. When I was told you were going into a nursing home it broke me, and it felt like I had no one when I was told I knew that it was getting worse. even though you weren’t there every time I saw you you still made me smile and laugh. You were my best friend and the one person I trusted the most. You saw me at every low and were still there for me through it all no matter how bad it was. you always worried about me, and there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t worry about you. You were everything to me, and so strong and took care of me for most of my life with no complaints, and always tried your best. I loved helping you and being there for you no matter what you went through. You still ... Read more

I miss you so so much. I remember the night me and mom got the call like it was yesterday. I was just starting to really get to know you. I love looking at all the pictures of you and hearing all the funny things you have done. I wish I was hearing it from you though. It still doesn’t feel right every time I go visit papaw. It’s been really hard for me to deal with everything because it just doesn’t feel right. I love seeing little burn holes in things because it helps me remember you’re still with me.

lets me just start by saying these last 2 years have been an interesting ride. I’ve gone through so much since you left. Let me tell you some things that happened: I got my first real boyfriend you would have loved him but he broke my heart, I got into butler tech, I have gotten 2 concussions in this last year, my last name is back to Meyer, I got a new boyfriend and he treats me so well yesterday I went to the butler tech dance with him. It’s been very hard without you I miss our Sunday talks and your “lexi you be good until the next time I see you and have our Sunday talk.” It’s been hard not seeing you on the side line not cheering me on and not hearing your voice. I have over come so much and you would be so proud of me! I love you so much and ill see you soon.