"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I was listening to Supermarket Flowers by Ed Sheehan just awhile ago, and it broke me. It reminded me so much of you. How little time you had and how quick you went. I remember writing you a get well soon poster made out of paper towels and my plan to sneak in the car to your hospital so that I could see you and give the poster myself. I badly wanted to see you that day, but they wouldn’t let me. If I’d known that those short four days were going to be your last, then I would’ve broken every boundary and law just so that I could see you. I could see your smile one last time instead of seeing you sick, vomiting all your food on the table, or seeing you leave the door with a handkerchief covered in your blood. Then often times I would think what you could’ve looked like if I did see you. I saw what cancer does to people now, and I imagined you looking like that. Weak, thin, and drowning in pain, then maybe I would’ve seen a more worse last image. But then maybe if I did go ... Read more

I don’t like your music, but I listen to it still. I listen to your voice, to your words in unsuccessful attempts of knowing what exactly killed you. It’s like you detonated from all the sadness inside you. Like all the love people gave you wasn’t enough to overwhelm the self loathe, self inadequacy. Frances wasn’t a reason good enough for you to stay. Courtney wasn’t.

You know what’s more scary, Kurt? That I feel it too. I understand it. I understand it enough that it’s breaking my heart. The understanding sits tight in my chest, making it hard to breathe.

I see your 8 year old self, hating the world already because your parents broke your tender heart, along with their marriage. I feel your 18 year old self, sleeping in the waiting room of the hospital you were born in. Helpless but strong. So strong. Asking yourself to not crack. (And you never did crack, Kurt. You exploded.) I feel you at 27, writing your suicide letter to Boddah, the only person you thought would understand your reasons. I see you scribbling your illegible handwriting one last time remembering how you had to modify the songs while singing because you couldn’t understand your ... Read more

I miss you so much, and your daughter miss too! But everyone is okay. Some things are happening in my life, but I can’t say anything here… Can you talk to me while I’m dreaming? If you can, do this. Please! I love you. We love you. ❤️

I miss you so much. I can’t believe it’s been over a year since you passed away. I miss everything about you, and all the things we used to do together. I miss my best friend so much. I miss watching movies with you, stuffing our faces full of food while watching them, finding new songs to show each other, and especially, being able to text you whenever I had a problem.

You were the greatest best friend in the world and no one can replace you. I love and miss you so much. ❤

you are the best singer in the whole world and I miss you so much, and I want you come to my dreams tonight at 11:00 so I love you and god bless you and goodbye.

you are the best singer in the whole world and I miss you so much, and I want you come to my dreams tonight at 11:00 so I love you and god bless you and goodbye.

you are the best singer in the whole world and I miss you so much, and I want you come to my dreams tonight and at 11:00 so I love you and god bless you and goodbye.

i know its only been 3 hours Umi, but we miss you already.

I don’t really remember what kind of a person you were. I know that you were really good at cooking and that you died peacefully. That’s all I really know from you. I guess i just want to say that I wish I knew you better and that I could spend more time with you. We all miss you and love you dearly.

I don’t really remember what kind of a person you were. I know that you were really good at cooking and that you died peacefully. That’s all I really know from you. I guess i just want to say that I wish I knew you better and that I could spend more time with you. We all miss you and love you dearly.