"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I was raised off of music. The only way I could sleep is if my parents put on classical music. Every Sunday my dad and I play this game where we go on pandora and we have to guess what song comes on, I win every time. Both my parents were such huge fans of yours. My great aunt saw you in concert but she said she was too high on drugs to remember anything, what a shame. I remember when I was little I would always watch you perform in videos. You changed when you were on stage, you always had this light in your eyes and I could tell you truly loved doing what you did. You made the music come alive. You could perform in front of someone that hated your music and have them moving. You owned the stage. I would always saw I wanted to feel the happiness you should when you were on stage. You are one of the main reasons why I got into music and why I play now. You songs are just so true and some show how upsetting life gets and no matter how sad you may have ... Read more

En primer lugar escribo esta carta en español por que quiero escribirte tal y como lo piensa…..No se si tal vez no estés muerta aún, pero sé que estarás pensando en ello…espero que durante todo el tiempo que debe de haber pasado, hayas encontrado la manera correcta de enfrentarte a tus problemas,nuestros problemas, la manera adecuada de corregirlos sin hacer sufrir a nadie, y menos a ti misma, sé que hace mucho tiempo(ahora mientras escribo esto) estabas haciendo eso,lastimándote, tal vez no siempre físicamente, pero si emocional y mentalmente, sé que antes(ahora) no hice las cosas bien para ninguna de las dos, quizás ahora tu estés pagando por ello, espero que entiendas que, realmente jamás quise hacerte daño, solo trataba de proteger a las personas de nuestro alrededor ¿ Cómo ?, fácil, haciendo como si no pasará nada, tragándome todo el dolor que tu alguna vez sentiste y que yo ahora siento; no quise hacer sufrir a nadie, por eso espero que en los próximos, días,meses o años, puedes manejar correctamente las cosas, me sentiría muy feliz al saber que lo harás, que sepas resolver tus problemas, y que puedas contar con las demás personas, por ... Read more

En primer lugar escribo esta carta en español por que quiero escribirte tal y como lo piensa…..No se si tal vez no estés muerta aún, pero sé que estarás pensando en ello…espero que durante todo el tiempo que debe de haber pasado, hayas encontrado la manera correcta de enfrentarte a tus problemas,nuestros problemas, la manera adecuada de corregirlos sin hacer sufrir a nadie, y menos a ti misma, sé que hace mucho tiempo(ahora mientras escribo esto) estabas haciendo eso,lastimándote, tal vez no siempre físicamente, pero si emocional y mentalmente, sé que antes(ahora) no hice las cosas bien para ninguna de las dos, quizás ahora tu estés pagando por ello, espero que entiendas que, realmente jamás quise hacerte daño, solo trataba de proteger a las personas de nuestro alrededor ¿ Cómo ?, fácil, haciendo como si no pasará nada, tragándome todo el dolor que tu alguna vez sentiste y que yo ahora siento; no quise hacer sufrir a nadie, por eso espero que en los próximos, días,meses o años, puedes manejar correctamente las cosas, me sentiría muy feliz al saber que lo harás, que sepas resolver tus problemas, y que puedas contar con las demás personas, por ... Read more

i like you. you probably already know that and i know you will never see this so thats why im writing it. i once told you that i never knew what true love felt like. but now i do. you have showed me what it feels like to love so deeply that every time i see you i feel like you should be holding my hand instead of your girlfriends. in the past few days, i have learned some things about you. i learned that you told my best friend you would date her when shes older. you told that to me too. i wish i knew the truth. i wish i knew if you loved me back. you mean a lot to me. you always will.

I know you’re dead and that is such a shame, but i figured that it couldn’t hurt to write to you. I know i could have picked another dead person to write to and tell mt feelings, but i knew that if you were alive and sitting in front of me you would say something to make me laugh. You seemed like the kind of man who never wanted someone to be in pain. I think thats why you were in so many comedy movies. Anyway. A lot has happened to me in the past year. I moved, met a guy that i really like (but has a girlfriend), told someone i liked them when really i didn’t. I know that doesn’t seem like a lot, but to me that is all a really big deal. My parents fought for a big portion of the year and it really hurt me. I became someone that i’m not. I am usually very shy and i still am, but i also used to be really nice. But ever since my parents (they are still together) and this boy (who my best friend likes) and my best friend who is going through a ... Read more

I know you are dead but I want you to read this please take me I want to be with you not with anyone else. Just think about what it would be like if we to together again. Love you again read in that weird way you know what is going on from you own

I’m writing to you because you once said things do get better. And I don’t know, I was just wondering when maybe? Because that’s what I need. Some form of certainty that this won’t last forever. That I won’t always be so sad and that my dad won’t always be the dark cloud over my life. I know my grandma is about to join you, wherever the afterlife is. I’m not sure that I’m ready to let go of her yet but there’s nothing I can do. It’s like I feel my life falling about around me and I am utterly helpless. So if you are listening, when does it stop?

You are part of the reason as to why I became an actor. Your performances in Harry Potter and Love Actually pushed me to pursue the art of theatre. Thank you so much. I’m sorry that you aren’t here anymore, we all miss you. I wish I had gotten the chance to tell you this when you were here. I cried when I found out and nobody knew why. I’m going through a tough time and you’ve helped me so much… thank you so much.

So, the next time I cry because I watch Harry Potter and see you, some may ask, “After all this time?” and I’ll reply, in tears, “Always,”

Lumos.

Are you proud of me..? Are you happy to watch me from heaven? (I know that’s where you went, seems how “hell” wasn’t even in your vocabulary.) I’m not on the path you led me on when I was 5, I’m not on any path at all. I’m trying to make my own but I’ve only collected a few stones over the years and I don’t really know myself yet. But I wanted to know if, other than my actions pertaining to things you wouldn’t have wanted for me, if my heart, and my kindness and my strength has kept up with what it was while you were here. Remember you used to tell me “you’re going to be so tall.” Well, not really. A senior in high school and only standing at 4’9, you would be surprised how big I have to be to even be seen or heard. But I hope I’m as much of who you saw me to be as you would like, and I hope the rest was worth losing to help me find who I really am. I’m sorry about all the sins though. I love you.

are you dead ? soon you are. i konw were you live