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So my dad listens to some of your songs but I never really payed attention until recently. I listened to the lyrics and actually felt a sense of comfort. I went home that day and put on heart shaped box and just let it play while your other songs continued to play after it. I was just laying there taking in the emotion in the songs. After finding your music I started to find myself. I used to only listen to rap and act a lot different but now I know that’s not me. I don’t listen to rap anymore and i definitely have changed. So I wanna say thank you for helping me find myself and thank you for your music.

Dear grandma, I miss you everyday and it’s been hard to stay fine theses years but I know that you are with grandpa even when I didn’t had the chance of seeing him i know that whatever place both of you are i couldnt forget my love even once. Theses days i had felt so much empty in my heart and it’s not your fault im just terrified of being loved or trust someone bcs i feel sick when i see someone being capable to love me when i dont, more than anyone else you know how our family are and can make anyone happy feel incapable of everything and it’s getting worse too much fight for nothing these life pass so fast. I’m lost,mom.

I miss you a lot. I think about you often. You’ve been gone for about six years now, and while it’s certainly easier to deal with the grief of losing you now than when you died, I get struck by these waves of missing you. I think about you sometimes when I fix my hair, and how you would hate that I cut it short because you always liked braiding it. I remember when you were going through chemo and you started crying because you were so sorry that you couldn’t do that for me anymore. I think about you when I talk with dad, when I realize I’m going to know more about him and his life than I’ll ever know about you because you’re not here to tell stories about your life anymore, that it seems like you’re only here as other people’s stories. I guess that’s all you can be now, huh? I think about you when I do the things I think I know you enjoyed doing, but it feels so long since I’ve seen you. Will I ever really get to know you? I’m an adult now and it hurts knowing you won’t know ... Read more

I miss you every single day. Sometimes I start to think there I can’t live without you. Everyday of my life I think about you and about all the things that we never did together, you was my sun, my reason to live, my anchor, but today I don’t know how to survive. I hope that one day I gonna hug you again and you are gonna whispher that everything is gonna be alright. I will always love you, please, don’t forget that.

Times have been kind of tough with grandma Toni. Her Parkinson’s is getting worse at a quicker rate than we thought it would. So me, Sam and my mom try to go over there as much as we possibly can to try and calm her down and give her people to talk too. Because we all know you were right about Scott, he hasn´t done anything to help any of else get through this or try and keep it under control. When all of his friends are around he wants to make everyone think he is this concerned loving husband, when he is not at all. Also Allie being in Florida is tough for grandma just because she doesn´t know what one of her kids is doing at all times like she does with my mom and William. So the extra stress of having her gone is what we think is also contributing to the fact that her disease is getting worse. I am not trying to write this to get you upset I am just trying to give you a little update on everyones lives. Grandma has finally stopped ¨seeing¨ people because we changed her medicine ... Read more

I would like to tell you that no matter what happens I will always be your little princess. I miss you so much already, I know it’s been 15 years already but I don’t want to forgive myself for being a not so nice grand daughter to you. I have been so bad to you, I even talk back to you. But even though I did that I know deep inside me that I love you so much. The time that you’re not doing well at the hospital mom told me that you looked for me, your favorite grand daughter. I know you can’t read this though, but I just want to vent this all out. I love you Lolo.

I miss you so much. 10 years.

Hi goober, I miss you beyond words. I am devastated you have gone so soon. You were the best cat ever. You always made the family laugh and you somehow never ran out of energy. I say you were the best cat, but we all know you acted like a dog 24/7. I love how you made a huge mess when you ate your food, most of the food on the floor instead of in your bowl. I love how you never drank out of your water fountain, but instead you’d drink from our cups, the toilets, or the bath tubs. I love how you always laid in my bed even if that meant you had to climb the ladder to reach the top bunk. I love how whenever I was sad or sitting alone you jumped up next to me and kept me warm. I love how you were chunky. I love how you would chase the laser pointer around the house like a mad man. I love how you meowed at nothing. I love how you would push my bedroom door open and wake me up for no reason at ungodly hours of the night. I love everything ... Read more

It has been a year since you died. I miss you a lot. I haven’t seen you since I was 8 or so, but you’re still my dad. I am 15. I started my freshman year. I wasn’t going great for a few months. I met someone and things didn’t end well. I still struggle with it. Are you with Grandpa John? I hope so. I hope everything is okay between you two. I know things were probably difficult with him and Gran getting a divorce, and I don’t know if you and Grandpa John had the best relationship. I heard you used to get into a lot of fights. I started listening to Gorrilaz and a few other bands you’d like. Mom told me that you’d be proud of me. It was a year or so ago, but I remember it very well. I was sleeping in her room and she was turned to the wall, but I heard her say it. I think she was crying. I hope you are proud of me. Rick is my adoptive father now. He’s okay, but I miss you. He can be scary sometimes. He doesn’t hurt mom or me, but he ... Read more

Hi Grandma It’s not so long ago that you died. I think of you every day and I wonder what I should have done so you could be here a little longer. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry I didn’t make it. I had no idea that your artery near your heart would burst and you would disappear like a bright golden powder from a bell. I don’t feel as happy as before, and only because fate took you away from me. He took you from me and there’s nothing I can do about it. Thank God I have Max here. You liked him and im so happy about that because he is my first boyfriend. We love each other. We really love each other. I love him and it makes my life a little more beautiful in these difficult moments. Not even all the words from the Czech language you taught me would describe how I feel about Max. I love him and I thank you for being happy for me. We talk about you sometimes and we both love you so much. I hate the world for robbing me of you. The world took you and im so angry ... Read more