"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Também quero estar morta. Acho que não é algo que você se orgulha e muito menos algo que eu posso dizer “ei Kurt, quero ser como você.”. Mas sim, quero estar morta e logo estarei, por sinal. Daqui a exato um mês. Marquei essa data porque gosto do dia 21 de setembro e terei tempo o bastante para planejar. Mas hoje quase adiantei a data. Porque agosto é sempre o pior mês e o dia de hoje está pedindo a minha morte. Então vim para um canto escutar alguns gritos e acabei em Rape Me. Da pra sentir sua opressão à essa dor. Você queria estar como eu e se controlava para não gritar mais do que o necessário no refrão. Mas você queria gritar, queria jogar tudo pra fora como eu quero. Mas todas as minhas músicas controlam esse extinto, todas as que eu tenho na playlist. Eu só queria gritar e expulsar tudo de mim. Eu só quero estar morta. Pergunto se sentirão minha falta e todos concordam e dizem que ficariam magoados comigo. Mas acho que já cansei de me importar com todos os outros. Porque ninguém vive por mim e está insuportável. Só quero que entendam e me perdoem ... Read more

I really miss you more than everything, but with the nostalgia I gained the confidence to believe I don’t need you to live. You taught me many things, especially to believe in me, believe I’m extremely beautiful, extremely capable, extremely hot, that I shouldn’t surrender to anyone, should I just do what I want to do, even if they insist too much, but I surrendered myself to you, I ruined my life because of you, and who now suffer is me, those who suffer the consequences of our mistakes is me. You ruined many things, but you fixed many things too, you healed my wrists, you ended up with my shame of my body, you were the first, and to you I surrender myself again. If I told anyone what you did to me, and then told what still feel for you, they would call me crazy, but I can not do anything if you stole my heart and led him to where ever you are.

I’ve listened to your songs all throughout high school. I came to know about you through a friend of mine who would constantly run through the halls singing “Come as You are”. Who would have known that a teenage girl like me would fall in love with your voice. Junior year was a hard year for me. I had the pressure of school, being the only girl in the family, my family, and trying to decide on my future. I knew that you wherent really happy here. Just like I was. That day I slit my wrists I thought about you. I though about what your suicide letter said. I wasn’t going to leave one because unlike you I knew I didn’t matter to no one. No one needed me I was taking up space someone like my cousin could use. She always needed more space than I did. Why couldn’t I be her? Perfect with her perfect body and excellent grades and a high school sweetheart and that perfect smile. Feeling my warm blood drip down my wrist I thought about all of that. I felt warm and you can say I felt happy. I didn’t expect for ... Read more

Recently, I listened to your song especially “Somewhere Over the Rainbow” which was recorded in 1939. That’s all for today.

When they called me and told me that you were dying I didn’t believe it, I couldn’t believe it. And a few hours later when they called me and told me you had gone, I have to tell I wanted to go with you, I couldn’t see a world without, because you were and you still are my everything. I lost the biggest part of me when you died. After your death I think I realized how sad, and probably depressed, I am. It’s so hard, it’s so painful, I can’t handle it. Love you so much..

I’ve never met you, but my father tells me I would’ve liked you a lot. He says you would’ve spoiled me because I would’ve been your only grand-daughter. Sometimes I feel you watching over me and looking out for me when no one else is there. Even though you’re not in my life, I love you so much and my aunt and dad tell me that they’re sure you love me too. Thank you for being there for me….without actually being here. PS..thank you for the sand dollar ♡

I’m starting 10th grade in two weeks. Monday was my birthday. The whole family came and celebrated with me at my favorite italian restraunt. I got victorias secret, hot topic, and starbucks gift cards, three shirts, a wallet keychain, a john lennon and michael jackson album, $60, and a bath set w victoria secret lotions. The best present was from my best friend, Austin. He came to my doorstep . He had his black backpack. Inside were beautiful pink roses, a big beanie boo kitty named “muffin” and a card. Also a miku backpack. I wish you were there. But you were in my heart though. Being 16 made me realise I’m ready for the real world. I wanna get my education, my career, a nice house, and get married and have kids. I promise mom, I will succeed for you! I luv u! <3

I lost you over 7 years ago. Honestly, I don’t know how we’ve made it this far without you. Grandma and Poppy still have their days, but they’re doing wonderful for parents who have lost their daughter. I just sit and wonder how different my life would be if you were here today, and I wonder what your opinions would be on some trending topics. Wondering is all that’s left; I’ll never know for sure. I’ll never know what it’ll be like to see you wave as I leave for college. I’ll never know what your reaction would’ve been on my wedding day. I’ll never know, so I have to wonder. I miss you every day Crystal. I miss us watching scary movies without Mom’s permission, or walking down the hall beating wooden spoons onto metal pots to wake the girls up. I’ll never forget those memories Crystal Dawn. I love you to the moon and back.

I think you haven’t sung because you wanted to be known, I think you have sung because it helped you to off of your problems. You hadn’t the best life because if you had you wouldnt kill your self. I hope you are better off than on earth.

I knew you from Batman But then i saw 10 things I Hate about you and i Loved you’re talent more than before. Your Fans miss and loved you so much.