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Hi Great Grandma I miss you so much. Words can’t start to tell you how I feel. You die 6 years ago before my 7th birthday. when I heard my parents say you were die I cried and cried all night. I layed awake most nights thinking about you because you were the best. I saw aunt Rosy a few moths ago. It broke my heart to see her but not to see you wait to see me and give me all the hugs you can. But I am doing better now because every nighhth before I go to bed a tell myself you’re in a better place now. And just one day I can be up there with you.

I can’t wait to see your face

Faz 5 anos que você foi embora. Agora a dor nao machuca com tanta frequência, aprendi a seguir em frente. Mas ainda tem aqueles dias que a dor volta, lembro de quando eu era criança e dormia no sofá vendo tv e acordava de manha na cama que nem mágica, hoje eu ainda acabo dormindo no sofa mas de manha eu ainda estou nele, dai sinto tua falta. Dois meses antes de voce partir tu ficava tentando me ensinar a fazer as coisas sozinha por que tu nao ia ta sempre ali, eu ti abraçava forte por que eu sentia que tu ia escorrer como areia das minhas mãos, nós duas sabíamos no fundo que tava perto do fim. Tu era minha âncora mesmo que não fosse perfeita, agora eu tenho que ser minha propria âncora, eu tenho que cuidar de mim mesma e isso doi, por que eu ainda queria ti ter do meu lado, pra quando eu chorar poder correr pros teus braços e ouvir tu dizer que ia ficar tudo bem. Eu sei que eu vou ficar bem. Mas eu quero que tu saiba que eu sempre vou sentir tua falta, por que eu te amo com ... Read more

Hii, its your granddaughter. I hope you are okay. This year have been chaotic for our family, but I think , we will be okay, so don’t worry too much. I’m quite worried for grandma, shes sick but shes quite stubborn to eat her meds and doesn’t want to eat the healthy foods. :/ Hopefully, she’ll be alright. 🙂 Well, School is okay, its hard, but what’s new? I’m managing it well, I guess. You know, I really miss having a grandfather, I get jealous seeing people hanging out with their grandfather haha. But, its okay, I like to believe that you’re in a better and peaceful place. Also, do you know, your youngest son have been working real hard and coping well with these problems, I hope you are proud of him, like how I’m proud of my father. :’) Rest well, loveu.

I am so sorry I was not a better friend to you. Im sorry I left for college and barely spoke with you. Im sorry I didn’t ask how you were doing before telling you how great I was. I miss you so much. I struggled for so long to understand why you left this world. I thought it was my fault for not protecting you and caring enough as a friend. I finally stopped crying when I hear your song. I understand that there’s a plan for all of us on this earth, I just wish you could’ve lived a longer life. I’m sorry it took so long for me to be able to talk about you, or to you. I’ve just never experienced the loss of someone so close to me, and it made me emotional for so long because I didn’t know who to go to. I kept all my feelings inside because no one else truly knew how to help me. I miss you everyday and I know you’re with me. Thank you for always being there for me, I love you, rest in peace.

It’s been a while, after crying for hours,days,weeks. I finally have the strength to say Good bye. Thank you for the memories, Thank you for the love. Thank you for everything. I’m sorry that i’ve turned reckless but, I’m happy now. I’m okay, and i hope you are too.

I love you and Good Bye.

It’s been 2 years without you. Since you have been gone I’ve been in soo much pain knowing that you will never be able to come back. I cry myself to sleep each night but I pray to god that he will tell you that I love you soo much! I wish you have seen me turned to a teenager but you didn’t 😩 I wish you could see me graduate in 3 years ❤️ But I know that you will be watching me from heaven . Everyday is a challenge for me knowing someone I was very close to has left 😖 it crushes my soul. So far right now my life has been terrible. I made bad choices and mistakes. I feel like I’m going on a wrong path. But I’m trying my best to make you proud of me. Dad don’t worry I will go to college and get a degree and become somebody! I pray my soul will rest easy when I die. No pain, no sadness, everything is perfect and I will be with you ❤️ Bless you dad

É estranho que você esteja em tantas coisas, mas também é bom, assim sempre tenho um pedacinho de ti no meu dia, mesmo que não do jeito que eu queria. Sinto muito que eu tenha demorado demais. Isso não é bem culpa, porque sei que te amei com todo meu coração e minha inocência, ainda amo, muito. Em alguns momentos é como se você ainda estivesse aqui, até esqueço que tudo mudou e sorrio com alguma memória boba. Minha mãe contou que a música que eu mais gostava era a da Borboletinha e que você cantava o tempo todo. Obrigada, por fazer tudo mais especial, por colorir a minha vida.

Estou com saudades, Taz.

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When I think about you My whole world falls through

There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about our long conversations. It’s crazy to think that it’s been 4 years since we last spoke. You were my rock for so long, I’ve still never been able to replace the type of friendship we had. I talked about everything. From my relationship with your grandson to my relationship with my own mother. It’s hard still walking into the hospital and or the nursing home where we spent most of our time together… I thought over time it would get better, but as the years go on there is so much that you missed out on. Drew and I got married. Idk if this would of been exactly what you wanted, but we are officially family now. I’m so sorry that I couldn’t save you. I’m sorry that you missed our wedding. I’m sorry that I’m writing you a letter and not telling you this face to face. I wish I could go back in time and make our friendship last longer because I really would LOVE to just hear you give me that great advice. You never steered me in the wrong direction. ... Read more