"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Oii. Eu estou com tanta saudade. O meu coração está quebrado e não vai ter conserto dessa vez. Hoje eu contei das nossas memórias na chacara, você foi o meu melhor amigo por tanto tempo, o meu irmão mais velho e é tão difícil sem você. Eu sinto muito por tudo, como eu queria que fosse diferente e pensar nisso preenche todo o meu peito de dor, não deixando espaço nem para respirar. Se eu soubesse que seria assim, teria deixado você ganhar aqueles jogos onde a varinha claramente mexia e você roibava na cara de pau. Pensando bem, eu não iria. Talvez eu te abraçasse mais forte na hora de assistir aos desenhos e manteria você ali comigo até ficar tudo bem. Você sempre fará parte da minha vida, sempre terá esse lugar de pessoa incrível que trouxe memórias indescritívelmente maravilhosas para o meu álbum de momentos. Eu amo você, muito mesmo e isso irá durar para sempre, Taz.

Muita luz para ti. Espero que estejam cuidando bem de você com seu coração de ouro.

Oi. Estou com saudades. Ir na cozinha roubar comida do armário não é mais divertido. Não tem mais o mesmo significado. E eu desejo que nada tivesse mudado. Não tem mais você para me proteger de todos os monstros da madrugada. Então eu durmo e acordo esperando que meu pai esteja lá pela manhã para preparar o meu café. Você sabe como sou mimada, a xodó do papai.

Certo, agora sobre a minha vida. É isto, está confirmado, eu beijo garotas e desejo beija-las. Na verdade, até agora foi uma garota, mas foi diferente do que beijar garotos, não foi só um beijo para mim. Só não sei se isso se aplica a todas em geral, espero descobrir logo. Minha antiga crush foi deixada de lado, pois não vale o esforço sem evidências de que pode funcionar e minha antiga paixão é passado totalmente, me iludo muitk gempo achando que eu importava, sendo que ela nunca vai mudar, boa sorte ao namoradk dela. Tocando a bola para frente, estou tentando conquistar uma em especial, ela é fofíssima e me causa frio na barriga, e o melhor, ela é do vale e solteira, isso transparece nos tweets dela, só preciso descobrir ... Read more

Creo que después de leer este libro, se ha despertado una sensación en mi tan…inexplicable. Realmente te puedo decir que las cosas no son lo que parecen, nunca, siempre existe una cosa, una pequeña cosa que cambia una cosa aún más grande, incluso cambia tú mundo. Y es así como yo me puedo expresar de ti, como algo, algo muy grande y valioso que cambió mi mundo y el de las personas que te rodearon algún día. ... Read more

I know that this is stupid because you are imaginary but I have been wanting to cry all week and I watched your movie and the dam broke. How could someone who meant so much and was the brightest light to someone who needed it like Jess die on accident and a useless person like me couldn’t die on purpose? You were too beautiful. You were golden, like the wall you painted in your movie. Nothing gold can stay, but Terabithia could. And did. And I wish I had something like that. That spark. That beauty in me. So I could be like you. Perfect in childhood innocence and wisdom. You died. You are gone. You died. And I needed you as much as Jess did from the moment I met you. I haven’t wanted to die for a while and I still don’t. But Leslie. Where did you go? I needed you. And I can’t be like you. And I need the magic. I used to have it. But years broke me down. What would I not give to have it again and the world that might praise it? I just want my dreams back. And I want you ... Read more

Hey, how are you? Hope you are doing fine. Sometimes, I wish I have someone to rant to, I mean my parents are ok, but I hate ranting my problems to them because they will worry about me a lot. They already have their own problem and I don’t want to be a burden or add on to their problem. I’ll just rant to you through this ok? College is hard. I am struggling so so much. I don’t know if I can do this? Thinking positive is so hard. I’m trying so hard to think positive, but nothing is going through my way? Do you think God is just testing me right now? To see how strong am I? I hope this is all temporary. I am slowly feeling depressed, grandpa. I’m scared. I don’t want the same thing to happen again. That is why I’m tying so hard to think positive. It’s like every week I’m crying and that’s not healthy, I know. I think I’ll do something about it though, I think I’ll talk to my mentor or teacher? I can’t just bottle it all it, it’s dangerous. Anyway, thank you for reading. I love you.

I always need someone to talk to but whenever i find a person i can never seem to convey my thoughts and emotions. I’m a crybaby; more so than before. The thing i want so much makes me cry but the thought of doing it also scares me to tears.

Do you know how awful it feels to realize that you’re useless and that you bring everyone around you down?

if i weren’t scared i’d go and be with you. I miss you.

7th grade has been a tough year for me, I had to do an art project in art class. It was pop art, so we had to choose a celebrity that meant something to us and then we would make a pop art picture. I chose you and I used a picture of your character Ziggy Stardust it made me feel proud to use a person that was open about your sexuality and I Was happy to share this with my classmates. So, thank you for being an inspiration to me. Your influence on this world is greatly appreciated, and will never be forgotten.

It’s me again, and I’m proud to say that my days are becoming more…joyful at some point. I know this won’t ever reach you, cos letters written in the future cannot reach the past. Anyways, I still hope that somewhere, in another universe, you do receive this. I continue to hope even after my passing, although that’s not gonna happen for like a ton of decades anyway. So yeah, I just keep hoping, cos remember my quote:

“Always hope, but never expect.”

I have a few questions. 1) is how you just let Eliza take Hamilton, I mean she was your sister and you loved him. I am kind of going through the same thing only with my best friend. I really need some advice. 2) is if you ever regretted letting him go. You are really a big role model in my life and I hope that you are happy where ever you are.

Sometimes life without you gets hard. My mom talks about you a lot and I wonder what you were like even though we met but I was one two or one. I can’t remember. But I wish you could just come down and say hello to me at least one last time. Maybe spend the day at the movies with my mom and I or go out to the park and buy some ice cream. Hope to see you soon