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i miss the old me. i don’t want this to keep happening. i don’t want to have anxiety, i don’t want to be depressed, i don’t want to him to like me cuz i can’t handle someone liking me. i don’t want this. i hope that the old me can come back. the old one that would stand in the student section and cheer, rather than the new one that hides under the band bleachers and reads. i don’t want it, but i don’t know anymore. i kinda do after all.

Your music was beautiful and I knew a lot of people who felt connected o your music and were hurt by your sudden death. Arazalea is a jerk and you shouldn’t have dated her. She tried to make merch about your death and profit from your passing. I miss you and I know many people who also miss you. This is from everyone in the Goth Boy Clique that misses you and loves you. Also the music that you were working on with artists is so good! I’m going to be really sad when there’s no more new music. Long Live Lil Peep

I miss all of you so much, i always wish having more memories together. although nonno, i have never seen you i miss you. I always think how it would be my life, and my family’s life if all of you were still here now. I love you so much.

Today is my 17th birthday. It’s been hard without you and as a birthday wish, I would like it if I saw you again, although since that’s not going to happen, I just want to say how I miss, and love you.

Hey, Ollie. You know, people tell you that when you loose someone you love, grieving can be the worse part. But they are so wrong. The worse part is the pity, the self-blame, the recoiling of details, wondering if one different decision would change how your life played out. Wondering, ‘Maybe if I had told you more often how much I loved you, you’d still be here.’ And although I’ve tried several times to take back what happened, I still can’t think clearly. Every time I close my eyes, all I see is your lifeless body. Remember how we used to make it a tradition to drink hot cocoa on the train ride to Aunt K’s house? Or the time we put plastic wrap on the doorway and Mollie walked into it and bounced back? What happened to the smile that was etched on your face through all of that. When you held Mollie in your arms for the first time. You were supposed to protect me from the feeling of uselessness. That’s what big brothers are supposed to do. I miss you so much Ollie. I have rewritten this email thingy 9 times over again. I can’t seem to ... Read more

You was and still you are my idol. I don’t know what is happened because you was so strong person. I wish one time I will be strong like you. When I heared about your suicide I was so shock. I cry all night. No one help you. You cry for help. For you I find help for me, I promise this to my sister. Your name is tattoed on my arm in arrow. Always in my heart.

It’s been fourteen years. I miss you every day. I want you to know that we are very good with M. We were little when you left. Everybody talks about how you were good. I will always love you.

I miss you, you have only been gone for about a week but it feels like just a day ago I was talking to you on the phone. You’ve been with me for 15 1/2 years and let me just say that they were the best years of my life. Even though we aren’t related by blood you’re still family and family will never be left behind or forgotten. I remember I loved coming over to your condo to go swimming. You’d always sit in your chair under the umbrella and watch me. You never came in but I still felt safe knowing you were watching even with others around. You also always gave me a dollar to do one of those claw machines or machines where you get candy or sometimes little toys out of it. And whenever I was at your apartment you’d always ask if I wanted juice. You always seemed to have grape juice. We both got older and you became more sick and life was tough for you and you aren’t suffering anymore and I hope you Rest In Peace. I’ll take care of the family for you. I love you Nanu

Hey, uhm, I don`t know what to say at first. Honestly I just miss you, since you died five years ago with a coma. And to tell you honestly, I`m still guilty that I didn`t do anything to save you back then, only three of us saw it and I was in there. I could have done something better or done something good. I watched you slowly die in front of me while hugging my younger cousins- telling them to be okay. Of course, I thought it was, until the doctor said you didn`t make it and we lost you. We didn`t watch television, my cousins and I feel missing without you, your children are scattered, your husband is distant and I feel lost. All of us are, you were an inspiration to many while I blamed you on your gifts on why you still bought the same gift. Later did I know, that was my very last gift from you, and all I said was a different one next year. If you could read this, I wish you were still alive today, my eighteenth birthday is coming this year, and I honestly want ... Read more

youre not dead. but our old relationship is, i miss it.