"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I have never got to know you, considering you were stillborn. But I really hope you’re doing okay up there. And I hope you have gotten to know gramps as well. I wonder how you looks like. Are you a boy or a girl? Would you follow after me if you were alive? Would you be very kind or really mean? But I wouldn’t be able to know you at all. Because you’re gone. It’s probably my fault about how you died. I still have you in my mind after all this time. I don’t remember much about the day you died. All I could remember was how mom started crying as well as auntie. I really wish I could has met you. May you rest in peace little sister or brother. <3

You passed away when I was only 3 years old, and I don’t remember you at all, but I can see how much our family loves and misses you which makes me love and miss you as well. I personally don’t know what I got from you, but everyone tells me that I act just like you and that’s kinda what makes me feel close to you. So thank you for being as amazing as everyone tells me you were, and I miss you dearly.

You’ve been dead for three days now. And I feel so sad about it. Especially since you didn’t just die ; you ended your own life. You, wonderful singer of Linkin Park. It caused me quite a shock when I heard it on the news, really. I just couldn’t believe it.

Chester, you were my voice when I didn’t know how to use it.

You and the guys of Linkin Park put words on my pain when I felt really down and couldn’t do it myself. I do believe that you saved a lot of kids out there, by giving them hope, for sure, but also by the mere fact of expressing their pain, through your voices, music and lyrics – those beautiful lyrics, they won’t ever leave me.

I’m not the kind of person who is really keen on festivals and concerts, but god knows I would have loved to see you (a)live on stage. You had such an incredibly powerful & mighty voice. You could be singing, screaming, yelling ; with such a soft voice, sometimes with a comforting gentleness, sometimes an aching tenderness ; or with such an angry voice, shouting out all the pain, the rage, the fear. Very ... Read more

Hey. It’s me. Hattie just showed me this website, so I figured I’d say hi. Maybe I’ll come back soon. I’ll always love you.

When I heard that you hung your self I really didn’t want to admit it. You were in pain, the kind of pain no one should have to feel. I don’t want to but I blame you for most of my pain and depression. the week you died my Uncle passed away from stage 5 cancer and my best friends dad died from a stroke. it hurt. why did you do it. I’ve felt that kind of pain . I guess im just writing to say I’ve forgiven you. I just need you to know that suicide doesn’t end the pain, it just passes it on…and Timmy you passed your pain to me. and I forgive you, because unlike you I guess I was strong enough…suicide is for those who cant handle the brokenness and guilt. I just want to say I undersand and I miss you.

You may have been gone since 1/22/08 and i forgot that you have until i watched 10 Things I Hate About You on Netflix and fell in love with the movie and Patrick. So i looked up the cast and clicked on you. It said you died and then it hit me, i remember my mom telling me from seeing it on the news. I was 6 and you were 28, which is too young to die. After the realization you arent in any new movies i went through a small time of sadness and i mourned your death like it just happened. Then i watched the Dark Knight and praised the way you executed the Joker. You are my favorite Joker and that is one of my favorites but 10 Things I Hate About You will always be my #1 and i finally purchased the movie!! Then i watched A Knights Tale which was funny and made me laugh at the characters and your acting was great as always. I want to see Lords of Dogtown so badly because you played Skip and its about skateboarding which seems good. I havent seen any of your other movies ... Read more

So far you probably know that I keep on coming here to this site to write you a letter, whenever I feel too desperate and sad because of you, that I feel like nothing else is going to work. I feel like this is somehow your email to heaven and that if I write here, you can actually read it. Whenever I feel so low because of what happened and I sit in my room at night, feeling like I’m going to explode, I come here. This is my instand therapy. It always helped so far. Even though I haven’t written you in a while, that doesn’t mean I’m okay. I’m just shut down. And tonight is so hard, because I realized that today would have been your birthday. Shock. And then I went through some pictures and made it all even worse. I miss you. Even though I don’t even know what I miss. That’s what makes it harder probably. I’ve started therapy also, been there three times so far, and I’m so happy I’m doing it. I have the perfect therapist, and she always gives me hope. I wish you could have seen here. I would so very much ... Read more

Hey, uncle. Whoever you are or wherever, I believe it is my time to say something to a now-entity-and-contrarily-rotting-of-a-flesh dead man. I knew your name, but I forgot. I wish we knew each other better, but I’m glad we didn’t. I’m too messed up. You know, problems and stuff. You’re the only dead person I’m related to, by blood. And I sure hope you’re the only one. I’m sure there were others, but I wasn’t born early enough to even know their existence. I would love to talk good things, like how I’m doing good, or how I lived this far in my damned life. I wish I could lie about that but, to me it seems dazing and probably a little confusing to think how I badly want to live and to live good, and how I’d rather have myself killed than live a fucked up life. I guess that would be bullshit, and selfish. There are people who loves me even when I’m shitty, people who take me as someone of relevance to this pathetic spherical ball of land and sea. It is very disturbing that I’m sending these words to a grown dead man who wouldn’t have understood me ... Read more

I miss you so much. I told you that I was worried you were going to die if you didn’t take better care of yourself, that it would break me… you promised me this was the year and you were doing your best…. and you were… and then you died. It’s been 4 months without you and I’m so scared that there’s nothing after death. That everything you were and suffered for your entire life, was for nothing. I’m scared daddy.

Assalam Walaikum, I hope Ya Allah (SWT) has answered our prayers and has placed you in heaven and has forgiven your sins. We are all ok on Earth. Dad would cry sometimes at your absence, sometimes me too but then Allah (SWT) did what’s best. It has been 4 years since your death and we still mourn. What would life be like right now if you were alive? Would you be living with us here in England? Or would you still be in Bangladesh?

Grandma and Uncle are here with us in England. You have 3 grandsons named Salman, Tariq and Ayaan (your sons’ and daughter’s sons). Your daughter’s mother-in-law passed away last year. All these things have happened. Would it have made a difference if you were here?

Who knows…………….