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I had a dream about you last night- not that that’s unusual- you feature in a lot of my dreams. And you know about them (some) – I have really long movie-like dreams every night. Except they are nearly all nightmares now and I woke up this morning shaking and felling so ripped up inside. I can’t deal with those mornings-I have to shut everything away and try to wrap myself up with walls so that it doesn’t show. You’re not dead- though there was a time when I was scared shitless that you might be. I honestly don’t know what I’d do if you had committed- actually that’s a lie, I would be in pieces so small I don’t think that they could be put back together. My dreams are so long it would take a long time to tell every bit of them- and that’s the worst part of them- I can remember every bit of every nightmare and they haunt me all through the day. It was at a party (I think) we were all drinking but I remember being pleased because it didn’t seem to have affected me (in a bad way). Towards ... Read more

How happy were you when Mama gave birth to Ate? I wish I met you.

Hi, I was looking for Mary and came upon your family. If this is the same Mary, pls let me know. I knew her in Hoosick falls NY. She was previously doing jewelry and left for L to marry Tom. I know she came from NM. you may reach me at LGunneson@imi-ct.com

You left us.. I don’t think you meant to but you did. My dad was hurt and so wasn’t I.. I grew up with you you were always there for me. You would make me laugh and make me annoyed. Then you met her she ruined you. You were my uncle so I had to look out for you everyone knew what she was doing to you. She brought you drinking and made you do drugs. But little did any of us know she cheated on you. No one ever would have thought you would have did what you did. She told you so wrong, she should have told you better. She was pregnant and I hate it. My dad got the call and rushed there I didn’t know what happened. He told me that you had taken so many pills and drank way to much. You were not even a mile from your own house you two shared and she couldn’t go look for you. You were dead for about 5 hours and no one knew. I hate going to school with her kids and having them say how great of a guy you were when they didn’t get ... Read more

As days pass by, and years come and go I still think of you. You left us with broken hearts. And broken hearts hurt. I know you didn’t mean to, you thought you’d be fine but in the end you weren’t. I miss you.. everyone misses you. I hope one day I see you again. Maybe I have already seen you , maybe you blossomed into a flower. Maybe you are an caterpillar that has grown into a butterlfly. Maybe you were born again into a new life where your life has changed, for the better. How I’d love to know. Thank you for everything.

I can’t imagine I could ever miss someone I’ve never met, but I miss you, my little, tiny cousin. You never got to see the world, hear rain, and drink in the sound of family. Your little brother Elio.. He’s a handful! I bet you would have been a amazing big sibling! We never found out if you where a boy or girl, but to me, I’ve decided you are Lyla. Beautiful like your mother and with an amazing talent for music like your father. If only, if only, if only.. I miss you little lady!

Youre gone, and i need you here… i miss u so much well we all do it, i havent seen your parents but i know they miss u too, i still cant believe that your not around, school is not going well because your not there, i pretend that everything is fine but im breaking slowly and im still not ready to let you go, everything i see reminds me of you, we decorete your desk because no one can fit in that please, peopple say that youre taking care of me in the sky, but i dont want you there i want you here with me, i want you to take me pictures when im distracted, i want you to get angry because i dont sat with you, i want us to read all the comics you like, i want you to hug me when im crying and tell me that everything is goinf to be fine, i want to talk with you all nights… its hard wake up everyday and think that all was a nightmare and that i will see you in the bus smiling to me, my big brother, my favorite person in the ... Read more

I miss you so much. Even though I never met you, (you died before I was born) I learned from my father and Grandma that you were an amazing, hardworking man. I am now 13 and there is so much I wish you could have seen me do. I hope you are at rest up there in Heaven, I know you are looking out for me in the good and the bad times. I wish we could meet, say something ANYTHING. Dad misses you immensely, always talks about you. He loved you more than you could ever know but I know I’ll see you one day. Until then. Send my love to Geordie, Mav, Sammy and Daisy

I miss you. My grandna and your wife miss you. Your children miss you. Every person who have known you, miss you. Me and my parents knew it. They knew that you were dying. But it was too early. And too fast. Do you know that you die at the same date as Heat Ledger? He was awesome actor. Me, my sisters and our grandma saw a movie The curse of the Grimm brothers with him. I miss that you were picking up me when I have scout. I miss that you were doing stupid things. You were one of the best grandpas ever. I love you for every secoun of my life. Thaks you for all.

i miss you. even though i never saw or got to know you, you died before we were even born and left me alone to suffer in this ugly world. and i didn’t even know about you until two years ago. i don’t even know what to call you, but i like to think of you as Jessica. because it’s such a pretty name and i feel that it would suit you. sometimes i think of how everything would have been different if you were here, how i’ll never feel alone and that i’ll always find someone to talk to. and how we’ll share the same interests and we’d read books and watch movies and obsess over stupid things together. you were actually my only chance of happiness. i’d like think of your soul flying in the sky freely and fearless and maybe you check up on me from time to time and on your family you never had . i love you. even though the only time we shared was in our mom uterus. i’m jealous of you. cause, you got to get out of this world and i want out too. i’m coming to you soon wait for me, sis.