"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I miss you so much and I can’t believe it has been over six years since you have passed away. You left us to soon and its been super hard on everybody. I try to be happy cause I know that’s what you would have wanted but I break down so much on the inside. I will never be the same again. I was mad at you for the longest time because i didn’t understand why you would just leave me. We are family and you changed all of our lives forever. I didn’t think you loved us anymore because if you did you wouldn’t have left us especially me. I just wish I got to say a proper goodbye and you wouldn’t have had to leave so soon. I just read this book for my English project and I fell in love with it. It made me think of you so much. I wish you were here to see me grow up and do amazing things. I wish I could talk to you about so many things but I can’t. I dont really talk to dad that much, he calls every once in a while. It’s always so awkward ... Read more

I love and miss you so much. I learned to let go, and I did. I feel so much better. I don’t grief or get angry anymore. I learned that even though you are gone, you will always be in my heart here. Holding on to a pain won’t help anyone heal. My heart is happy now. Thank you E for everything. I love and miss you.

I wasn’t alive when you were but i love your music and your story

So I know you’re not actually dead. In a figurative way though you are to me. You betrayed me. You let me believe I could trust you and I did. Truth is I miss you. I miss the relationship we used to have. You were the only person I felt like I could truly tell anything to. I miss all the weird crazy stuff we did together. I miss never spending a weekend alone because I had you right down the street from me. I miss being able to call you in the middle of the night when I felt scared. I miss watching Are You The One with you. I miss planning to get our first apartment together. I miss doing so many things with you and I know it can never be that way again. I know it’s not all your fault when it comes to the tear in the relationship. It was your mom’s when she lied about what she was doing to me and her letting her sister put them lies about me and my family on facebook about me, but you did play a part in it. You started telling everyone my secrets. Things I’m ... Read more

I dont know anything about the rock stars or the rock music, bit i love you and nirvana i oove your story

Well it’s been a year since you died…I don’t really know what I feel anymore. I used to be so sad that I couldn’t stand it, then I was mad, then I was confused, and now feelings come and go. Sometimes I feel sad again and it’s like I just heard the news again and other times I question everything. I know that I can’t think about the “what ifs” but that’s what you left us with. What if it was an accident, what if I had talked to you more, what if we had never moved schools? No one will ever know though. We were left with questions that we never should have had to ask and an empty bedroom in the house. I have learned to focus more on remembering the good things instead of just the sadnessYou sent me your name. Now you have to answer all the questions. The times we spent at the cabin on the lake and the inside jokes that, now, only I understand. I miss you so much and wish I had told you that I loved you more often. The last time ... Read more

I miss you.. all the laughs we had together. Everything. I miss your smile. You made this town a better place, and everyone knew you. You made everyones day so much better. I never seen you much, and if i could go back, id come visit more. I love you grandma. Im doing good. I hope you are too. I have a boyfriend now. He’s a great guy, he doesnt live here. I really really like him, and i think you would too. I wish you were here so i could tell you about him. I wish you could meet him. I hope all is well for you. You’ll always be my angel<3 I just wanted to stop in and say hello, and let you know im doing good. I love you.

you passed when i was seven. i remember watching you fight the hard battle called cancer. you were so strong, i don’t know how you stayed that strong. you were my best friend from the moment i was born, to the day you passed. i wonder if you were stil here, would you be proud of the person i am today? i wish you were still here. there’s so much you need to know, from boys to troubles at school, i wish you were stil here so i could tell you. love and miss you <3 fly high

I cried when you passed away, I still cry today. Although I loved you dearly, I couldn’t make you stay. Your golden heart stopped beating on June 22, 2002 . God broke my heart to prove he only takes the best. Whenever I feel hopeless and down I can look around my room and see you there you always protect me and guard me from all harm. Thank you and I miss you.

I’m missing you like crazy again and this isn’t good at all. They made me pray again, mom and our little brother. I hate doing it. I hate praying. I hate religion. And even though I’m still a little religious, I kinda hate God for making it be this way. He could’ve given you a better ending. He could’ve given us all a better ending, but no. We’re left with this grief and suffering. I miss you everyday, but I learn how to ignore the pain of missing you. But at times like this, I feel like I wanna die. I’m relieving every terrible moment of my life. I wanna write about it, but my hands end up shaking and unable to do anything else. My heart begins to have no desire to do anything and I just feel like one big failure. I hate feeling this way you know? I just keep thinking about suicide. But other people tell me that these problems are not worth killing myself for. So does that mean I mean nothing at all? I’m just worthless am I? Then I guess it’ll be alright then? Since no one cares at all? I want ... Read more