"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

You were (and still quite are) one of the best people in the world. You inspire me just like you inspired/inspire millions of others. The first movie I saw you in was A Knight’s Tale and of course I fell in love. Crazy huh? But of course I found out that you had passed on years before I got the chance to look up your life story. I was crushed and I literally cried for hours. It tore me apart knowing that you would be gone forever. But the truth is, you never really left did you? I don’t think you ever truely left.

I remember the first day I met you as though it were five minutes ago. Your long blonde hair was draping over your petite frame as you smiled a small smile at me. I was six at the time , you were almost nine . Our fathers new one another in high school, your family moved up the street only a week before . I never met you before this day. I was having a tea party , all the boys and girls in the neighborhood showed up dressed up as a Disney character they favored and we sipped hot chocolate and made the usual ‘ potty joke’. On this day we became best friends . It’s been years and the distant memory of you still repeats itself sometimes as though a lullaby. I still remember your favorite color , it was orange you really liked sunsets , but hated warm weather. I remember how loud you were , you were never afraid of being loud either, or anything for that matter . I wanted to be just like you . Your name is Jade , You wanted to be a veterinarian, you always thought that dealing with animals ... Read more

I want to thank you for being my friend and little my family. I don’t want to write million words. This’s a quick thank you. I’m sad that I’m going to leave you if I go to another school. Believe me, I’ll be at home every weekend. Yo Yo Bitch

It has been 7 years. 7 years since you left. 7 years since you went away. 7 years since you died yet it feels like just yesterday I said my final goodbye to you. It feels like just yesterday that I saw tears coming down your face when I had to say goodbye and leave. It feels like just yesterday that I came home from a school trip to DC only to find out that you died while I was gone. It feels like just yesterday that I cried myself to sleep in mom’s arms because you were gone. But it wasn’t yesterday. It was 7 years ago. Honestly, Dad, I blame myself for you dying even though I know it is not my fault. I had yelled at you the day before you went into the hospital. I had cussed at you and wished you were dead. I didn’t know what was in the cards and what would unfold. I had been leaving little letters for weeks saying that you could let go and leave us. I knew how weak you were becoming. I knew you weren’t going to be here for much longer. I wish I could take ... Read more

It has been 7 years. 7 years since you left. 7 years since you went away. 7 years since you died yet it feels like just yesterday I said my final goodbye to you. It feels like just yesterday that I saw tears coming down your face when I had to say goodbye and leave. It feels like just yesterday that I came home from a school trip to DC only to find out that you died while I was gone. It feels like just yesterday that I cried myself to sleep in mom’s arms because you were gone. But it wasn’t yesterday. It was 7 years ago. They say it gets better and that it gets easier to deal with death and people not being here anymore but honestly it doesn’t. It doesn’t get easier. Sometimes it feels like it gets harder and harder. Sometimes it feels like my life will never be okay and that I will always have a hole in my heart. It feels like there will always be a void in my life. You won’t be there to walk me down the aisle at my wedding or to hold your new grandchildren. You won’t be ... Read more

I was raised off of music. The only way I could sleep is if my parents put on classical music. Every Sunday my dad and I play this game where we go on pandora and we have to guess what song comes on, I win every time. Both my parents were such huge fans of yours. My great aunt saw you in concert but she said she was too high on drugs to remember anything, what a shame. I remember when I was little I would always watch you perform in videos. You changed when you were on stage, you always had this light in your eyes and I could tell you truly loved doing what you did. You made the music come alive. You could perform in front of someone that hated your music and have them moving. You owned the stage. I would always saw I wanted to feel the happiness you should when you were on stage. You are one of the main reasons why I got into music and why I play now. You songs are just so true and some show how upsetting life gets and no matter how sad you may have ... Read more

En primer lugar escribo esta carta en español por que quiero escribirte tal y como lo piensa…..No se si tal vez no estés muerta aún, pero sé que estarás pensando en ello…espero que durante todo el tiempo que debe de haber pasado, hayas encontrado la manera correcta de enfrentarte a tus problemas,nuestros problemas, la manera adecuada de corregirlos sin hacer sufrir a nadie, y menos a ti misma, sé que hace mucho tiempo(ahora mientras escribo esto) estabas haciendo eso,lastimándote, tal vez no siempre físicamente, pero si emocional y mentalmente, sé que antes(ahora) no hice las cosas bien para ninguna de las dos, quizás ahora tu estés pagando por ello, espero que entiendas que, realmente jamás quise hacerte daño, solo trataba de proteger a las personas de nuestro alrededor ¿ Cómo ?, fácil, haciendo como si no pasará nada, tragándome todo el dolor que tu alguna vez sentiste y que yo ahora siento; no quise hacer sufrir a nadie, por eso espero que en los próximos, días,meses o años, puedes manejar correctamente las cosas, me sentiría muy feliz al saber que lo harás, que sepas resolver tus problemas, y que puedas contar con las demás personas, por ... Read more

En primer lugar escribo esta carta en español por que quiero escribirte tal y como lo piensa…..No se si tal vez no estés muerta aún, pero sé que estarás pensando en ello…espero que durante todo el tiempo que debe de haber pasado, hayas encontrado la manera correcta de enfrentarte a tus problemas,nuestros problemas, la manera adecuada de corregirlos sin hacer sufrir a nadie, y menos a ti misma, sé que hace mucho tiempo(ahora mientras escribo esto) estabas haciendo eso,lastimándote, tal vez no siempre físicamente, pero si emocional y mentalmente, sé que antes(ahora) no hice las cosas bien para ninguna de las dos, quizás ahora tu estés pagando por ello, espero que entiendas que, realmente jamás quise hacerte daño, solo trataba de proteger a las personas de nuestro alrededor ¿ Cómo ?, fácil, haciendo como si no pasará nada, tragándome todo el dolor que tu alguna vez sentiste y que yo ahora siento; no quise hacer sufrir a nadie, por eso espero que en los próximos, días,meses o años, puedes manejar correctamente las cosas, me sentiría muy feliz al saber que lo harás, que sepas resolver tus problemas, y que puedas contar con las demás personas, por ... Read more

i like you. you probably already know that and i know you will never see this so thats why im writing it. i once told you that i never knew what true love felt like. but now i do. you have showed me what it feels like to love so deeply that every time i see you i feel like you should be holding my hand instead of your girlfriends. in the past few days, i have learned some things about you. i learned that you told my best friend you would date her when shes older. you told that to me too. i wish i knew the truth. i wish i knew if you loved me back. you mean a lot to me. you always will.

I know you’re dead and that is such a shame, but i figured that it couldn’t hurt to write to you. I know i could have picked another dead person to write to and tell mt feelings, but i knew that if you were alive and sitting in front of me you would say something to make me laugh. You seemed like the kind of man who never wanted someone to be in pain. I think thats why you were in so many comedy movies. Anyway. A lot has happened to me in the past year. I moved, met a guy that i really like (but has a girlfriend), told someone i liked them when really i didn’t. I know that doesn’t seem like a lot, but to me that is all a really big deal. My parents fought for a big portion of the year and it really hurt me. I became someone that i’m not. I am usually very shy and i still am, but i also used to be really nice. But ever since my parents (they are still together) and this boy (who my best friend likes) and my best friend who is going through a ... Read more