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im listening to rehab right now as i watch my boyfriend text another girl. this goes on all day.. but your songs make me feel strong. when i feel like giving up i think about the things i want to do in life and what you might’ve wanted to do. i want to live my life always hoping theres a better day . i hate blake he was bad to you. id love you better than he did because you deserved it. you were beautiful, smart and talented and i look up to you for those things. thank you for existing because youve made me believe everything will be ok. Rest in Power

I didn’t and I will never ever say goodbye because I know to myself that we will still be seeing each other. You are always in my prayers and I’m praying that you are happy with God. I know that you love us, your family and likewise. We Love you my brother, my best friend and my companion in watching volleyball games. Mwah!

I don’t quite understand how to live without someone like you here. When you were with us, you’d sing your songs with a joyful voice but I know that inside of those songs there was always something sad. My Great Gandma, who recently passed, had loved your songs. Her favorite was And I Love you so, it was played at her funeral. See, I could never show sadness for what happened to her because it always scared me, I think. The fact that I wouldn’t be the fun-loving artist and musician I am, but I would be a scared little girl waiting in a shell that was ready to crack at any moment. You always proved to me that there was a line between happiness and sadness and sometimes you could stand in between the lines and make it look like pure greatness. My mom loves you too, me and her always sing Fools Rush in (or Can’t Help Falling in Love) together. That song was the first song I learned to play on my ukulele, and I’m glad because it makes it even more special to me. I think my mom is more distraught than I am ... Read more

I wanted to tell you that I love how you were always honest, but where you really I mean everyone lies in their time on earth. I wanted to write a letter to you because you give me passion to write I am on the verge on writing my first book. It’s about this girl who falls in love with the sea and this boy on the sea ship. While she was mesmerized by the sea she tries to touch it and she falls over board he saves her, she lost her ankle bracelet without it she forgets everything and everyone. I wanted to tell you this because you remind me of her.

There isn’t a day the goes by that I don’t think about you. You’re my idol since I was like 5 years old. I’ve never forgot the first time I had listen to your music. It was so raw yet so powerful, I could feel the pain, I could feel the emotion you put on it, even though i was just a kid. You have no idea how much you had help me and how much I look up to you. Now, I’m 17 and every time i listen to your music, it’s like it was the first time. You inspire me daily, I started singing because of you and now it is my passion. You won’t be forgotten.

I miss you even though you passed before I was born. I feel like the first time I seen you, I knew you my whole life, I understood you. I thought and still think you’re the most handsomest actor there was and is. I loved how you weren’t afraid to be yourself. I love the way you could get into any character. And mostly I love the sound of your voice when you sing. I didn’t know you were dead at first. When I found out I was heart broken. I was also angry at you and everyone who was with you that night. Such a beautiful soul gone too soon. Sometimes I dream about you and I hope and pray It’s really you talking to me. On Jan. 30th It was my birthday and I went to Hollywood. My family and I decided to go on the Hollywood tour to see all the famous homes and places. I found out we would be seeing The Vapor Room which is where you died. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. As the tour was going on we finally came up to the club and I started tearing up. I wonder ... Read more

I am so sorry we never met. I will always remember you. You were an amazing actor and an amazing friend. We will never forget you. I love you.

I never got to meet you but my mom sais that you would have liked me. your daughters married again but this time I think it’ll last. she loves you very much and I think she needs you every once in a while even though she would never say so.

the feeling of missing you is sometimes to hard to bear. I have always loved you and always will. I have never needed to talk to someone as much as I need you know. you always listened to me and I need that right know. I feel like my friends don’t even really like me and the world is out to get me. I’m thinking about taking a vow of silence but I think my parents will think I’m joking but I’m not. I’ve never felt this alone in my life. I can be in a crowd of people who say they love me and say they care and still feel alone. my perfect world that I created inside my head is dyeing and instead it is filling with pain and loss and the fear that I wont be able to feel better. my world is dyeing because reality happened. my best friend always says she loves me but I feel like she just sais it because she’s nice and doesn’t want to hurt my feelings. I’ve never been bullied in my life until now. I wish reality never happened and I could just hide inside my head and ... Read more

It’s been almost a year and I can hardly accept the fact you’re no longer here with us. The memories we have shared were so brief and honestly something I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forget. You were such an inspiration to me and I can’t help but feel guilty for losing contact with you in your final few months. You were such a happy girl and I honestly hate knowing you were taken too soon. I also feel guilty for hiding my feelings, I don’t want to open up to anyone in the fear they don’t want to open up; I don’t want to be turned down because they’ve already healed their wounds but mine are only taped. I hope wherever you are it’s beautiful, because here has turned gray. The days blend in and the same routine is at play. I like to think you still sit on my right on the bus listening to Fall Out Boy and singing along so passionately to let me know your there, laying your head on my shoulder so you can take a nap before we ran all the way back to my place to listen to ... Read more