"More than a stunning debut. It is the announcement of a bold new literary voice"
—Stephen Chbosky, author of The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I will always remember the day I met you, the very first time I saw you. Classes had already begun and everyone was already settled dow when you came in. You were tall and handsome and something about that eyes and that smile made me fall for you. We didn’t start talking until the second bimonthly, my friends had talked to you and tried to make me talk to you too, but I was to shy to do so. When we sat next to each other, you were the one who started talking. I thought these talks wouldn’t last long, but hoped they wouldn’t and they didn’t. We talked 24/7 in the school and never outside, I was the one who started that. The day I knew you liked me back was a very happy day, Fernanda (who was my best friend at the time) and me had been “fighting” over your heart and apparently I had won (Which written this way doesn’t sound nice) because he was asked if he would rather date me than her and he said he would rather date me. One day, you asked me out on a “date”, it was only going to be the ... Read more

I love you guys so much I don’t know what i’d do without you please dont ever leave me I need you more than you know- you are what makes it ok and just about bearable. I love you guys.

I am so tired and screwed up and I just feel sick. I hate it all and I want it to stop because I am such a crappy person in a crappy life and I am so stuck and trapped and I have no motivation to try and make anything better or to get my life back on track.

It’s been years haven’t had a single conversation. Yeah it’s unexpected but it’s somewhat important for me. It will take some efforts to read all these as it’s kind of none of your business but it’s very last time whoever you have encountered with right now.

Everything has changed since then, as 3 years has been passed, thoughts, perceptions, surroundings, a new reality is here. I have been waiting to say something to you. I tried a lot but would not be able to do that and 3 years got passed during just trying all those. I had a wish to meet you once and have some conversation but I was not able to make that happen. I thought for the last day of the college(practicals) to do so but my destiny did not allow me again as I got departed from main exams. So the thing has happened which I was worried about that I am not going to see you again in my lifetime and my wish is not going to get completed.

After that, things were hard, I was not even able to face you, stopped going to college, did not wanted to annoy you anymore. Every ... Read more

I will never understand why you decided to leave me, you were and are still my bestfriend. I don’t think you realize how much I love you. You’ve been gone for 4 years and I still struggle with it everyday. I can’t call you and tell you about everything that’s been happening and I want too so bad because so much is going on. I can’t tell you about job opportunities or school, honestly I’ve forgotten what your voice sounds like and it makes me sad. I wish you could be here watching me, I miss you every day gramma. I always find myself asking why you didn’t listen to the doctors, I guess you were just tired of life I know it can be stressful and you went through a lot but I wish that you would have decided to stay for me, anyway this is goodbye for now. I love you so much grandma.

I think about you a lot. I know it’s been a while since you’ve gone but I still miss you. I miss those moments that were made during those short months. The water fights in the house. The volleyball games in the middle of the streets at night. You were free. I want to be able to be as free as you were when you died. The drunk wind blowing in your face as you did what caused your death. I want answers and I wish I could have been there to somehow stop you all from leaving but I can’t. Im a new person now and I’m lost. I connected with this book so much. I think about how you wanted to be a crow when you died when we would sit on the porch at night and I hope you are. I hope somewhere you’re flying around and loving the freedom. I’ve never told anyone this besides my best friend dean. I was molested more than once when I was younger. I think that’s what made you leaving so hard on me. I needed someone like you to protect and when you left I new nobody ever ... Read more

It’s been twenty two years since you left. I had so many kisses, so many hugs to give you. The first few years without you were hard, the emptiness you left is still difficult to fill. There is so much of you in dad, that sometimes I feel that I’m talking to you through him. Many things happened, some good and some not so much, but I’m just going to tell you the good ones, so you don’t worry, as you used to do for me and my sister. You have a great-grandson whose name is Julian; he is 8 years old and he’s a beautiful child. I’m sure you would have been a wonderful grandfather. Apart from that, I’m studying to be an English teacher. I really like the language and I would also like to be a teacher so that I can help others become more extraordinary persons. I have very good colleagues and also teachers. I think these next 4 years are going to be fantastic; I’m really excited about this challenge, because it has not been easy for me to get to where I am now. You see, mom and dad got divorced 8 years ago, ... Read more

It’s been eleven years since you left. I had so many kisses, so many hugs to give you. The first few years without you were hard, the emptiness you left is still difficult to fill. There is so much of you in dad, that sometimes I feel that I am talking to you through him. Many things happened, some good and some not so much, but I’m just going to tell you the good ones, so you don’t worry, as you used to do for me and my sister. You have a great-grandson whose name is Julian; he is 8 years old and he’s a beautiful child. I’m sure you would have been a wonderful grandfather. Apart from that, I’m studying to be an English teacher. I really like the language and I would also like to be a teacher so that I can help others become more extraordinary persons. I have very good colleagues and also teachers. I think these next 4 years are going to be fantastic; I’m really excited about this challenge, because it has not been easy for me to get to where I am now. You see, mom and dad got divorced 8 years ago, ... Read more

It’s been eleven years since you left. I had so many kisses, so many hugs to give you. The first few years without you were hard, the emptiness you left is still difficult to fill. There is so much of you in dad, that sometimes I feel that I am talking to you through him. Many things happened, some good and some not so much, but I’m just going to tell you the good ones, so you don’t worry, as you used to do for me and my sister. You have a great-grandson whose name is Julian; he is 8 years old and he’s a beautiful child. I’m sure you would have been a wonderful grandfather. Apart from that, I’m studying to be an English teacher. I really like the language and I would also like to be a teacher so that I can help others become more extraordinary persons. I have very good colleagues and also teachers. I think these next 4 years are going to be fantastic; I’m really excited about this challenge, because it has not been easy for me to get to where I am now. You see, mom and dad got divorced 8 years ago, ... Read more

I know that this is supposed to be a letter for the dead, and obviously you aren’t. But you left me, and I still don’t know why. They say that the most painful goodbyes are the ones never said, the ones never explained. That’s exactly how you left me. Whenever I see you in the school hallways , when i meet your eye, you act like you don’t recognize me at all. You were my best friend, my only one true friend, and now you’ve left me completely alone without even one goodbye. Have I done something unforgivable? Am I such a loser that you couldn’t afford to be seen hanging out with me? To this day, these questions remain in my mind. I know that I don’t have the right to say these words for i have only known you for half a year, but those 6 months have been the best moments of my and that’s because of you. I know that you’re doing well and are very happy with your new friends, but I only hope that you’ll somehow read this letter and that one of these days you’ll be able to tell ... Read more